Whatsername

Speech Day cum Arts Awareness Day

2006-07-29T15:05:00.000+08:00

Today sucked. Much more boring than I actually expected... Also much more formal than I expected. I came late for the mini-musical... So my friends thought I did not come. YEAH so anyway we had to wait for about 1 hour before the thing actually started. We screwed up... Some of us did not even have enough time to wear our life jacks. Everyone one was like... Looking at us. Can you imagine the disgrace?

Anyway after that we had to go return the equipment to Miss Ang... We kept knocking the door but no one answered so we thought no one was inside. We decided to wait outside until someone came back... Then we saw our seniors. They asked us what the hell were we doing here cause we were supposed to be at the parade square cheering. We told them that we were waiting for someone to go to the staff room. Then they told us that they have been sitting inside when they heard knocks but decided to ignore them. I was like... WHAT? So we returned the equipment then watched the ceremony from the 3rd floor.

Later I went down to find my classmates. That stupid Charmaine went to go find SUPERWOMAN so she let me alone! That stupid asshole! I will fry Charmaine alive next time. YOU crazy woman! Anyway I found Min Yee so I decided to harass her. We were being super lame by buying some lovey dovey keychain. Actually there are 2 keychains in one set. So I took one... She took one. CHEESE! Then we asked Meiyi to help us buy drinks... Miss Li told us that people were giving away free balloons. We rushed over like little childs... I know what you are thinking. 'So childish'. But do I care?

Then after that I went to go take my drink from Melissa. Then I found Charmaine! That retarded woman was walking around aimlessly. So bimbotic! She kept snatching my balloon with me! So evil right? Anyway so Charmaine suggested that we go harass CRABBS cause he was looking so pathetic standing there in the canteen. We went over to harass him about giving us food... He was like. SO BLUR! We were obviously playing with him then he took us seriously then told us if have leftovers he will give us. HAHAHA! Monday I am gonna ask him where are my leftovers.

So we started roaming the school again. Then we got bored... So we returned to the classroom. The stupid classroom was locked. I mean... Almost all classes leave the doors open. Our class is so kiasu! Charmaine somehow ran away again. Then we waited until someone with the class key came back to open the door. THEN... We went home! Charmaine was missing in action. SUPERWOMAN just called me cause she wanted to ask me where I was. They left only at 1.30pm. Charmaine is at Tiong with her cause she is gonna go to tuiton later.

So I went home myself. Then I went to the library to borrow some books. I borrowed this book cause COBWEBS as well as another one which consists of two SUPERNATURAL stories. So interesting. But the interesting thing I want to share with you is not about the books... The interesting thing is someone I THOUGHT I saw in the library. On the 3rd floor where all the teenage fiction stories are... There was this person who looked... ALMOST like Celine Ow. You know who she is? Celine Ow is the bitchiest back-stabbing slut I have ever seen. Now... Do not get me wrong. She knows that I think she is bitchy cause she herself thinks she is.

Lucky that person was not her... Or I would have strangled her on the spot. Or done something very vulgar. Anyway so I gave that person the death glare cause I THOUGHT that was her. The person looked super frightened as if she had seen ghosts. SHEESH! So I went home after that...

Today is the most stupid Saturday ever. Total waste of my precious time! Anyway I am totally addicted to the song called Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends by FALL OUT BOY! The title is so damn right. I would give champagne to my real friend while I would give real pain to my sham friends. That is all for today folks. SEEYA AT THE SHOW!

WHATSERNAME

Tragedy Chose To Struck

2006-07-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

Today... Tragedy STRUCK! The whole class seemed to be in utter chaos. I was totally lost in the midst of confusion... All the emotion. I wanted to just start screaming my lungs out... The class seems to be falling apart. Let me explain what happened from the time CRABBS stepped into the classroom.

He started being super strict... Then he was like... Staring at us with those sinister eyes. So damn freaky! Anyway he started going around inspecting on people... He scolded Hui Ping for not taking out her Maths notebook. I mean... He did not say that it was necessary to copy. Then later he scolded Vivien for not copying. I mean... Okay. I know you are in super bad mood... But also cannot go anyhow vent on other people. You wanna vent... Vent on the people that make you angry. Not the innocents.

Then it was PE with SAMAT. We were playing TOUCH RUGBY... But actually my group was playing dodgeball. So damn funny! Run run run around throwing at each other... Charmaine once hit Tania in the ass! Beautiful shot! We also tried playing monkey with it... But it got boring so we changed it to soccer. Charmaine was so afraid of the ball so we keep kicking it to her to watch her scream. Anyway so SAMAT heard about what happened to us in the morning during MATHS. He decided to give us another life-story lecture to WAKE US UP... But obviously... He failed.

When SAMAT wanted to show us the next step for TOUCH RUGBY... Some people kept talking which somehow made SAMAT super uber pissed off with all of us. He brought us out of the school on some empty road to scold us. He also wanted to split some cliques up... So retarded. They wanna be together after he leave... He also cannot stop them. This is exactly what happened to me last time at concert. My teacher forbid me to talk to Audrey... But in the end we also talk in front of her. So... Who cares?

Then after that we went back to the class for Geog. When we got there... Many people were crying. When I say many it is like... Almost 1/4 of the class. They were crying cause... I dunno? Maybe cause of CRABBS. He was being too harsh on them maybe? I dunno. I everything also dunno. That is why I say I got lost in the midst of confusion. Everyone was like... So upset. Then I was just like... WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED HERE?

So the day ended with Miss Tay trying to sort out everything. She asked us to write from our view about what happened today... Geez. I do not even know anything! I was just like... Being my cynical self. Sitting in the classroom paying attention to whatever the teachers had to say. Tomorrow is ARTS AWARENESS DAY cum SPEECH DAY. I hate it!

I have to reach the school at 7.30am! What the hell? Saturday you know! I want to sleep! They are deprived me of my SLEEP! I will hate them for this. ARGH! These people are seriously too much. They steal my Saturday from me. They freaking suck!

FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY. FALL OUT BOY.

I love them! I love PETERWENTZ! I wanna marry him! But the only problem is that he does not even know I exist in this world. Sad thing right? Okay people. I am gonna end my post with the lyrics of FALL OUT BOY. So... TATA!

keep quiet,
nothing comes as easy as you.
can i lay in your bed all day?
i'll be your best kept secret
and your biggest mistake.
the hand behind this pen relives a failure every day.

and i keep my jealousy close,
cause it's all mine.
and if you say this makes you happy,
then i'm not the only one lying.

drink down that gin and kerosene,
and come spit on bridges with me,
just to keep us warm.
light a match to leave me be.
light a match to leave me be.

WHATSERNAME

Quiz Smita wants me to do

2006-07-28T19:58:00.000+08:00

This is another quiz which Smita wants me to do... So yeah.

1. Whats the best Nickname that you have?
- Millix! Sounds cool right?
2. You think suicide is the best way?
- Obviously it is...
3. Rate your social life from 1 - 10
- 2? I am ~~kinda~~ anti-social.
4. Are you in love with someone at the moment?
- PETER WENTZ.
5. You missing someone at the moment?
- No...
6. Would you die for the one you love?
- No problem. To die for my loved one is so HOUNORABLE!
7. Do you think love hurts?
- I do not LOVE. I mean except for family or friends.
8. What's the worst thing about love?
- To LOVE is tragic.
9. What's the best thing about love?
- Do I look like I know?
10. Will you wait for someone you love?
- Sure! Espically for PETER WENTZ!
11. What song best describes your love life at the moment?
- Dance, Dance by FALL OUT BOY.
12. You wanna get married?
- Er... Am I expected to say YES?
13. Have you talked to the person you love for the past 24hrs?
- How can I ever talk to PETERWENTZ when millions of other females are chasing him?
14. Do you keep memories or try to forget them?
- Keep them close to my heart!
15. Is love always on your side or the opposite way?
- LOVE works in mysterious ways.
16. Are you sick of love?
- Yes espically from TEENAGE FEMALES. Relationships at this point of time DO NOT last.
17. Are you sick of questions of love?
- No... I find it amusing.
18. What are you going to do today-tomorrow?
- Pig out. Sleep. Wake up. Go to school. Die.
19. What do you want so badly right now?
- BANG! Shoot everyone.
20. What's the song that you last downloaded?
- Stalker by Goldfinger.
21. How much do you love music?
- More than anyone can ever imagine.
22. Do you play an instrument?
- DUH. Piano... Harmonica... Guitar... Saxaphone... RECORDER.
23. What movie did you last watched?
- POTC! Johnny Depp is so SEXY!
24. Do you believe in love forever?
- Do cynics believe that? Cause I am very cynical.
25. What's in your mind right now?
- How my food taste! So damn salty... YUCK.
26. What song is in your mind right now?
- Nobody puts baby in the corner by FALL OUT BOY.

Five people to do this quiz
Michie... Charmz... Bing... BANANA... ALEX!

Beneath

2006-07-27T18:29:00.000+08:00

her ice green eyes are locked away,
temptation they should parade,
but always blocking the truth she holds,
is her repulsive masquerade.

cascading hair of golden brown,
heaven's light cherade,
enclosing the face of an angel -
is her dreadful masquerade.

her lips hold every curve,
life's sweetest lemonade,
ever known to man on Earth,
beneath her masquerade.

beautiful mind, one of a kind,
pure and wise it was made,
unshared with any other beings,
because of her masquerade.

I would not call myself emo, YET

2006-07-27T16:47:00.000+08:00

I am not gonna lie anymore. I am not going to pretend to be someone I am not. I am sick of this world. I am tired of pretending. My lips are tired of smiling. My heart is tired of beating constantly. I am really very tired.

The world makes me sick. They let me down. But that is not the only problem... My family breaks my heart. Everyone thinks they understand me. They think that I am depressed just because I want attention from everyone. They always choose for me. They claim that it is for my good. My good? Look who is talking. Obviously it is for their own good... Never mine. They always say that if I have any problems or complains to tell them. But when I do... They never listen. When I complained about my sister... They only chided me for being selfish. I am selfish? I wish you people would open your eyes.

My sister has lost herself to her boyfriend. He is obviously controlling her mind. To me... My sister is already dead. Even if she were to die now... I would not cry. Even if I cried... I would be crying for my dead sister. The sister that piggy-backed me through the halls when I was young. She has become this bitch that I do not even think I know. Of all people... My sister has to become someone with qualities I hate the most.

She quarrels with me every single day. Since the last post. I realized that every time I think things are finally working out... Something just dashes my hopes. Not that anyone actually bothers to ask me if I am fine... But it would be nice. Not that I care if anyone else cares... But it would be nice to know that someone is there.

School was fine today. I was really physically tired so I fell asleep during the Australian New South Wales Maths Competition. The paper was killing my brain cells slowly. Something I would like to highlight about today... How pitiful Sebas Goh is. Everyday... The Crazy Clique will drive him insane. The most pathetic thing is that he does not even know how pitiful he is. I know that we students are the ones who suffer... Espically people like me who have no tuition. I beg you guys to just STOP. STOP! Get it? Since you have something against CRABBS then... Go deal with it personally. Do not drag other people in with you. Where is your humillity? Seriously... I am sick of people taking advantage of others in front of me. Although I do not LOVE Crabbs... I will still respect him cause he is taking his time to try to teach us. Can you just give him the simplest form of respect?

I am sick of having to tell the world how they irritate me. I am sick of people doing things to hurt other people. WHY? WHEN will you people STOP? Do you know how fucking annoyed I am? I guess you guys do not know. So I am gonna tell you right now. You wanna show your attitude? I bet houseflies have more attitude than you. The way you act annoys the shit out of me. You wanna go piss someone else off? Do it when I am not looking. Or else I will go insane again. Since you hate him so much... Go tell him straight in the face. You people are selfish. Just cause you people are super smart does not mean I am super smart as well.

I admit that I am super stupid. Are you guys satisfied now? I bet you are. I am damn damn damn damn sick. SO shut the hell up. You wanna go die? Go ahead. No one is the world has the right to stop you. I am sure God will not blame you for flushing your pathetic life down the drain.

WHATSERNAME

FROM UNDER THE CORK TREE

2006-07-25T20:24:00.000+08:00

FALL OUT BOY rocks! Peter Wentz is totally HAWT! Guess what? I realized something really very stupid but kinda interesting about me. I have love 5 Peters all my life whether they are imaginary or real. Wondering who they are? Let me tell you about them slowly.

Number o1 - Peter Chiu (My dad!)
Number o2 - Peter Pan (My lover!)
Number o3 - Peter Parker (My fave superhero!)
Number o4 - Peter Pevensie (Cool guy from Chronicles of Narnia!)
Number o5 - Peter Wentz (Lyrics composer for FALL OUT BOY!)

They are all so HAWT right? Espically my dad! Haha I am just kidding. Anyway how is the new template people? I see so many people have new template so I decided to change my own. Today Crabby was super pissed at us... As he always is. His weaknesses are so obvious. He is so damn soft-hearted... Not only that he also cares to much. That is why he is always busy getting pissed off at us. Poor Crabby! My class is seriously lucky they do not have me as their teacher... Cause I would not even care whether they care.

Today I am generally in OKAY mood... Nothing much to upset me. I am seriously gonna quit canoeing... I cannot stand it anymore. I feel so disgraced when I actually have to admit that I am in canoeing. Please do not ask me why... I just feel this way. Sui Ping which is my senior... Well... She totally rocks! When I told her I wanted to quit canoeing she told me that if I wanted to quit then I should quit as fast as possible. Most seniors or even my fellow SEC 1 canoeists would bug me to stay... She is the only one who feels the way I do. She herself is not very happy with canoeing... I can tell. Every time training rolls by... I would find myself praying for it to rain or for something to happen so I would not need to go to training. Or I would mentally fall ill causing my real physical self to be ill along with my mind.

Tragedy? Yes. Some are born with tragedy in their blood... I just happen to be one of them. I have decided that I am gonna work super hard on my piano so I can do MUM&DAD proud. I am gonna get high distinction then move on to diploma for music. Do you know how much my parents spent on my music fees? Okay let me do some maths.

number of years learnt = 8 years = 96 months
fee per month = 300
total cost for 96 months = 300 X 96
= 28 8000

WOW. GEEZ! So damn freaking much! My parents would be rich if they had not given me piano lessons. All the more I should do them proud! Yeah so... Today was okay in general. Nothing bad really. But if I ever encounter any... I will tell you in the next post. Seeya guys! SLEEP WELL! Btw... Peter Wentz is sexy. Have I said that already?

WHATSERNAME

LOVE is OVERRATED

2006-07-22T16:09:00.000+08:00

This sucks. Everything sucks. You suck. We suck. I hate this! My stupid damn sister is being so damn bitchy after she had this boyfriend. He is so damn... WHAT THE HELL CAN I SAY? I really have nothing to say. I just so damn angry about it. She is so damn FREEKAN irritating! Can she just shut up to listen to what I have to say? He is so damn... WRONG FOR YOU. Besides... I think he only likes you cause he get to touch you all over. I wanna kill you both with my bare hands cause you two are screwing my life worse than it already is. I am sick of you hopeless romantics. Why not all of you just drop dead in front of me? I will certainly be pleased... I assure you.

Yes... My cynicism has struck again. These few days... Everything feels so wrong. Nothing is going the right way. I want to hate them all so badly... But that... I cannot do. We all are gonna die one day anyway. So... I guess I have to put up with them for about 60 more years before I drop dead. I am being super constipated today... That is why I am listening to constipated songs such as Barbie Girl by Aqua. Opened bank account today at Yew Tee... I finally have the ATM card. That only gives my mother more excuses to kill me when I lose it... Agree? Some people act so sick these few days. I am not going to mention names... But you people should know who the hell you are. You people have practical mood swings were are so annoying... They flare up everytime you wanna ask them something. Or they give you that fugly losered face of theirs. When I say this... I am not talking about my sister or my family. They are another case. The hopeless case. So let me just leave that alone to rot in the corner... While I get rid of all the other rotting cases.

I cut myself again. With what you may ask... Guess. The book shelf. Amazing? I think so too. I was finding my puzzle book when I shut the two doors with my thumb inside. Started bleeding immediately when I pulled my finger back. Wasted two plasters on it... Cause they refused to stick. Anyway Uncle Bandhi or whatever is going to USA so mum asked him to buy book for me... What the hell? You know how many times mum asked him to buy stuff for me? More than I can count... Seriously... This is getting embarrassing. I would like to end my post happily so... YUP! One piece of happy news... I can sleep early tonight! I know it is not really like... SUPER good news but I think it will have to do for today. Cause everything seems so bleak.

WHATSERNAME

Ear Drums

2006-07-21T19:23:00.000+08:00

I am going deaf due to the fact that people were screaming in the bus so damn loudly. Not only that... They were singing. Sorry to say that you guys do not have fantastic voices... So my little ears are totally turned off. I hate fieldtrips... Get the picture?

Today was super boring... I was counting the hours to minutes for the time to waste away. My mind is dying slowly so I cannot type much for today. We went to Peace Haven after school... Quite boring there. Damn shitty tired.

WHATSERNAME

Cliche

2006-07-19T19:19:00.000+08:00

High School Musical. What I have to say about it? Overrated. Every one of the female species who is around the age of 10 to 18 have been telling me that it ROCKS. So I had to see it for myself of course. I saw it around 2 months back I think... That was the first time I saw it. At first I thought that it was OK but it got more annoying after all these crazy people start telling me how much it rocks. I see the three words HSM everywhere these days... Even Chermaine aka my little cousin loves it. So many things are overrated... Like soccer players such as Cristiano Ronaldo.

Yes I know... I am being cynical again about this damn freaked world. Living here is no different from hell. Anyway THAT GUY is back... That fucking Alicia Loh had to tell me about it so I could not concentrate for the whole damn day. I would rather she keep her fucking mouth shut so I can spend the rest of my life in peace instead of counting the time I wasted on him. Why must that sucker choose to come back? Go away! LEAVE! Go back toy Australia you damned bastard. I hate the fact that I can never hate you no matter what happens... So do me the last favour. LEAVE! Even if you come crawling to me... Begging that I go with you. Do you think I will? You made breaking hearts look cool when you did it. When you would hook up with my friends... Then break their hearts just to think that I would be jealous. You are SO wrong! So what if I liked you? Or should I say... So what if I like you? You are just another line another cliche love song for the hopeless romantics. My message to you? LEAVE.

School was hell as usual. Had Science test which I predict that I will fail miserably cause GOH sucks badly at teaching. Literature was damn stupid cause Miss Chan asked us to be battery hens. Do you know what hens are? They are chickens. Chickens are another term for protitutes... Get my point? For CME we put up out skit for Peace Haven... Quite lame actually. But at least it can make people laugh. Then we went to the counseling room for the counseling session. Then we had to play this game to know each other better called the ungame game. Speaking of games... I wanna buy truth-or-dare JENGA. Anyway for English we had Comprehension test on The American Badger.

Went home with Charmaine... Bing left us half way through. Charmaine is damn evil... You people must becareful of her. She has very sadistic thoughts about killing people. I thought no one could be half as sadistic as I am... But she proved me wrong. But she can be very angelic when she wants to be... But keep your guard up. You never know when she is gonna lauch her demonic attacks on you. I went to Bugis to meet MUM today... Bought 3 Archie comics. Bought ice-cream. We also went to the National Library to find the forth book of The Hollow series... The book has not even arrived in Singapore yet. Sucks.

Anyway I think I like Peter Wentz. I used to hate him cause I thought he was just some punk... Turns out that he is pretty cool. I always have bad first impressions of the people I like. Weird? I think so too. Anyway SOME GUY is acting weird... When I say SOME GUY it means that it is not THAT GUY. You know what he said to me? Forget it... That phrase is so damn gross that I wanna puke my lungs out for the world to see. My feet hurt... My heart hurts... My head hurts. With that... I would like you leave you guys with this phrase that holds precious memories for me. Someone I once knew very well said it to me.

I can't forget your style or your cynicism; somehow it was like you were the first to listen

WHATSERNAME

Another day in HELL

2006-07-18T19:38:00.000+08:00

Good day humans! How has your life been? I hope that it has been pleasant for you... Cause I am going fucking nuts! My 3 pieces for my piano exams are so damn horrible-sounding. The exams are next month! The fact is that I have less than one month to perfect my pieces. I have confessions to make... I have not even learnt my damn scales! I know I told Miss Lim that I learnt them already but I totally burned out. Learning music is stressful!

Anyway I am going broke... Or should I say I am already broke? I have about 75cents in my wallet for the rest of the month. I know I simply rock so shut it. I still wanna buy the FALL OUT BOY album... From Under The Cork Tree. Gonna go to Bugis to visit my mum tomorrow... Also to find the forth book for The Hollow. Oh yeah did I mention that the day I went to get my specs I went into this bookshop? I asked them if they sold the book they said yes. Guess what? SOLD OUT! I hate this... Everything I want would either be sold out or too old or some other stupid excuses.

School sucks more everyday. Had to stay back till about 3.30pm today cause of the stupid Speech Day rehersals... They are super uber lame! Oh yeah... We also have this stupid Chinese relief teacher who happens to suck so badly at teaching Chinese. I bet I can teach better than her! Duh! HuiPing was drawing her horrible face on the cover of her plastic container. We started saying stupid things... Wanting to dare each other to ask the teacher if she had chest hair. LMFAO! I know that we are super retarded but... What can I say?

I gonna rush off to perfect my piano pieces. My mum keeps complaining about me... I am so damn sick of hearing their complaints. Anyone has toothpicks? I would gladly stab everyone to death with them. I am damn tired of this stupid world... So damn sick of it. Sometimes I wish we would all just drop dead then die on the spot... What is the exact point of living?

Anyway nice template? I love FALL OUT BOY. Their lyrics simply rock my world! Anyway remember to comment on it! Gotta go... So I can watch ADCDJ later. TATA!

WHATSERNAME

Piano Concert

2006-07-16T17:50:00.000+08:00

Hello people... Went to collect my new specs this afternoon. I love my new specs... They are so damn clear. Anyway yesterday was the annual student concert. Tell you what... I hate it! Sucks like damn shit! I am gonna explain to you in detail of what the hell happened to me yesterday.

Before the concert I had to go to Chinese tuition in the morning. I was damn freaking tired... My stupid parents insisted that I go. So I just went cause I did not want to die of having to listen to their nagging. My skin allergy acted up again... My Chinese tuition teacher cares more about me than my stupid parents do. I heard them saying that I only cause them to have more headaches... Like I am the only one with problems. They are fucking prejudice against me... See why? At first I was quite upset... But I decided to shut up about it cause I did not want to cause chaos in public.

Anyway we got home at about 12... Kriz was at our house cause she is also in the concert as you people know. We had to pack all our stuff including fucking make-up... I know what you are thinking... But shut up. I really do not want to talk about it. So anyway we made the way there ourselves cause our parents were only gonna go there at about 6 when the concert officially started. We had to stand around at the studio... Looking like total retards. Audrey was playing the Nutcracker Suite with Ryan... Geez. They sure do look like lovers... Even Kriz agrees with me.

After doing lame shit for about 2 hours. We had to eat this buffet thing Miss Lim ordered for us to eat. The food looked revolting... My damn sis had to make it worse by saying I was talking-big. What the hell is wrong with her? I was drawing the picture of her boyfriend for Kriz when she decided to go all bitchy on me. Just cause he is ugly does not mean I cannot tell the truth right? Anyway yes so everyone was looking at me like I was this super-talk-big bitch... Like I care.

So it was time for us to do our make-up. Please do not ask me the details... I bet that you would not wanna know. We were supposed to pay 20 cents to go inside the toilet but Audrey asked us to just run inside. We did... The guy was stupid enough to look somewhere else at that point of time. Anyway we came out then we had to get going to the concert hall already... Most of the teenagers had kids to take care of. Except me of course... Cause Miss Lim knows they will turn as crazy as me if she ever allowed me to take care of any of them.

We were separted into groups... I was in the same group as my sis. There was this so-called naughty guy called Sean Koh in my group. I suspect that Miss Lim is totally exaggerating... Cause he rocks! While I was walking there with my heels... My shoe broke. He was the only one who actually bothered to ask me if I am okay or bothered to ask if I needed any help. He is so SWEET! He even bothered to wait for me while I walked barefooted across the roads... I looked so damn idiotic! Anyway his birthday is on Valentine! How cool is that? I am gonna give him some presents on his birthday! Hope he does not forget by then.

So anyway we reached there. Then we had to seperate into our period groups... You know? Classical... Baroque... Romantic. Yeah all those groups. I was in Baroque... I think Sean was in 20th Century so I was around the first while he was around the last. So yeah we could not talk anymore... Miss Lim made us wait like hell outside the doors. So damn freaking hot! We all were sweating all over... Smudging our make-up. Who cares anyway... No one is gonna stare at our faces.

So anyway the concert started... I was around number 8 or 9 in the whole concert. When I walked onto the stage... I was already sweating like shit. I hate people staring at me... I wish I could just stab them all with toothpicks. So anyway I pretended like I was not aware of that fact... Then I started playing my piece. I screwed up more than 2 times... But I played it cool. I am the queen of pretendence... Cause most people could not hear that I screwed. So anyway yeah... I went to the backstage to sit down. You may think it is like... Super cool or something. But the fact is that it is the total opposite. Damn shitty squeezy! Our legs were practically kissing each other.

Anyway I saw Sean talking to this guy with American accent so I decided to talk to him too. His name is Billie I think... He loves bugs cause he kept telling me about them. Yeah he loves POKEMON too... HAHAHA! POKEMON rocks! I remembered how much I used to love it... Actually... Come to think about it... I still do! Billie has another brother called Martin who has this weird Hong Kong accent. Weird? I think so too. Sean came back to say hi to us so yeah they started punching each other playfully. But in the end... Billie punched Sean straight square in the jaw in front of me. These people are barbaric! Anyway Sean started bleeding... So I gave him my last piece of tissue.

So anyway yeah the night ended. We got this trophy thingy for participating in the concert. At least we get something for being tortured for about 3 hours... Not too bad. Yeah so I said bye to Sean after the concert. He is so damn nice... HAHA! Relax I do not love him... So I will gladly give him to you if you want. Charmaine came to support me! She rocks! Anyway THAT GUY did not come. Maybe Charmaine is right... He knows I do not want him to be there so maybe that is why he did not go. HOORAY! I hate his guts. I mean he used to be nice but he sucks like shit now!

I am gonna play my GAMEBOY already. Billie has gotten me back into my POKEMON craze today! I love Charmander! HOT HOT HOT... SEXY SEXY SEXY! Thanks for listening to my rant people... Please come again sometime.

Misery Loves Me

2006-07-14T18:34:00.000+08:00

Does anyone know how much misery loves me? I highly doubt that... You people will never know how much it loves me. This feels like the worse day ever... That phrase is really understating what I have been through today.

I had to sit with Shu Min during Geog. Know what? She is either stupid or deaf! I told her once I told her millions of times... That her answer was wrong! She kept rubbing it away then she wrote it at the same place. The hell? I had the urge to ram her head on the wall until the wall breaks into two. I am not prejudice against handicapped people... She is just annoying. She keeps asking stupid questions that make me wanna drop dead in front of her face just to watch her twitch.

The next thing... My canoeing teacher officially hates me. Why? Cause of my fucking attitude towards her FUCKED face. The fact is that everyone in the team hates her just that she is so damn stupid to not even feel it. She thinks that she is super loved... Then I go for my piano stuff then she starts complaining. Fucking bitch! I would seriously pull the trigger to her head if I could. Forget it... She can go bitch for all I care. I am quitting! We are so OVER! I am gonna join Charmaine in photography...

Next thing... I was coming home from gym training for canoeing today. There were 3 old women waiting for the lift with me. 2 of them were friends so they were chatting away. When the door of the lift opened... This little boy was struggling to get out. The 2 fucking FAT women just squashed him until I made way for him. Little boy you know! Fuck those fucking old women! Who are they to call me rude? Anyway the 2 women were closing the door when the other old woman wanted to get it! My fucking hell!

Oh yeah... They are so fucking rude that they did not even ask me what was my floor number when I was squashed to the other side. So I had to reach out my super SHORT hands to press the button myself. As my floor was the lowest... I had to get out. One of the fat bitches just stood in my way when the door was opened. I rolled my eyes at her then said EXCUSE ME super loud to interupt their conversation. That felt... SO GOOD!

I could not concentrate well during the whole day of school. I was too busy being pissed off at this stupid lousy world! I though I was cynical... But the fact is that I am not. What I said about this horrible Earth is totally true. Get the picture? My life sucks.

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A-N-G-E-R

2006-07-13T19:55:00.000+08:00

I am fucking pissed off! Pissed as in... SUPER pissed! I hate fucking people who fucking check on me in the dark. AHH! I hate this stupid world! They are all playing mind games with me... So from now onwards. I am gonna say that I dunno every single thing they ask! Stupid fuckers!

Sometimes... I think that I am damn stupid or should I say... Naive? I hate myself cause of that fact... I am damn fucking sick of all those people who try to wear me down. I am damn damn sick of it! When can these losers get enough? I just wanna live my life like normal human beings! Why must you people pick on me? Why me? I hate myself sometimes so badly... I know I cannot entirely blame you for hating me cause sometimes the problem lies with me. But lately... The problems are all with you people! What the hell is wrong with you losers? SHEESH.

I have had enough! I am not gonna rant about you fucking idiots anymore. I am not gonna waste anymore time on being pissed at practically nothing. You people make me sick... I am not gonna surrender to your little mind games you have been playing.

Mind Your Own Beeswax

2006-07-12T15:55:00.000+08:00

I found this book on American slang... Quite damn freaking funny. Although I know most of them I have nv ever thought that they were American slang I always thought that they are in the English language. Banana! All your fault! Your influence! You stupid twit! No wonder last time when I wanted to submit my essay for the writing competition they banned me! They said my had too much American flavour to it... No local flavour so they barred me from joining! SHEESH. Nvm I love my accent whether it is in writing or speech.

Went to the library after school today... I borrowed this book called The Oxford Book of Twentieth-Century Ghost Stories! So many of my primary school people were there... Oh yeah did I tell you that the day I bought skittles I saw my junior dancer at the supermarket? She is damn cute! Or should I say more of pretty than cute... She still recognized me! Anyway I was browsing through the books that I lost track of time. I reached home at about 3 just now...

Fucking bored. Anyway I was having this conversation with Charmaine about religion just now... Surprisingly... I have found someone who totally agrees with me. I know that this subject is really touchy so if you feel insulted after reading this... My apologies but these are my real feelings. I feel that God is the creation of the human mind to satisfy humans questions. Like example... Why are we on this Earth? The answer... God created us. WHAT? I mean like... WHAT as in WHAT WHAT! A lot of people only believe in God cause they want to go to heaven when they die. That fucking sucks! I would rather burn in hell believing in what I want to than be fake happy in heaven. That is total BULL!

I agree with Charmaine that Taoist people are super cool! They do not even force you to do stuff you do not want to do or force you to commit alot. The other religions I am not very sure about it... Christians are super hard-core. I cannot stand those super hard-core Christians... You just say oh my God then they go crouching tiger hidden dragon on your butt with their long lecture on how you are using his name in vain. Geez... Relax will you? Another question I wanna ask is that... Why are there so many freaking groups of Christians? Why are they always fighting with each other? Seriously... That is the most stupid thing I have ever seen in my whole damn life!

HAHHAHAHA! Whenever I hear the song Dirty Little Secret by American Rejects I start to go ballistic with laughter. You know the show Deuce Bigalow European Gigolo? That show is M18 but I managed to see it. There is this gigolo guy who had sex with 3 people that night at some manor... 2 are females while one is same sex with the guy. Then they started to play this Dirty Little Secret song! I was like... Laughing like shit! So damn gay!

Anyway school was sucky as usual today. Miss Tay was missing in action today while Crabby came back... SHEESH! He should have stayed sick longer! His prescence is not appreciated... I got sprayed by two idiotic people. One is... LAME while the other is from the funny farm. Hui Ping is so damn freaking irritating! She keeps laughing at everything that is not funny... Can someone please control her? She is seriously getting on my nerves. Anyway... I am gonna pig out with my chocolates. TATA.

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Music is the fruit of LOVE? PSH.

2006-07-11T15:23:00.000+08:00

CHOCOLATES CHOCOLATES CHOCOLATES! Chocolates GALORE! I have 7 packs of chocolate sitting in my fridge wating to be eaten by ME. I still have one big packet of fruity sweets in front of my comp right now! This is gonna be so sinful...

My back was hurting since yesterday... Maybe I sprained it. Whatever who cares... Had Maths test today. Suprinsingly... I think I will pass! But Maths still sucks no matter what. HAHA! Actually supposed to be at Chinese tution but came back due to my hurting back. Poor me! Anyway I am gonna die for my concert. I have not even totally memorized the dynamics for the piece... I know Miss Lim is gonna hate me for ruining her perfect concert for the perfect audience with perfect pianists. There are exceptions though... That would be ME! Today there was music lesson... S.C was like... Showing off all her music skills.

UGH! So damn freaking irritating... Just that I do not wish to tell her off so that she can go home then cry to her mother for all I care in this world. She is like... Lower grade than me then she wants to show off. This is what I call annoying. Music lessons in school are super uber boring! Worse than with Miss Lim... I mean at least I can crack stupid jokes with Miss Lim or anyhow play or talk super loud. Then this teacher... So fierce that everyone suddenly become mute. I only become mute because I hate morning! I am allegric to morning people! How can they be so alive in the morning? That is just so inhumane!

Sheesh... Anyway good luck to BANANA for the food carnival! You better win this year... You must do the Jaws team proud! I love the name of your team! So damn cute! I hope that this year they will be eating BANANAS so you can win for them. I will be cheering you on! Just remember that you want to eat me then you must chew super hard super fast! Think that I am stealing your bananas so you are very angry... THEN... WOW. So fast! Haha actually we should call you MONKEY cause you love bananas so much!

Oh yeah I gotta be the MONK for some skit for Peace Haven. MONKS are so sexy! Know why? Only because I have become one that is why monks are sexy or not... They are... UGLY! Hahaha... Sure... I know that you think I am damn lame. Shitty day in overall thanks to some people. I gotta go play my 70 bucks game that I bought 2 days ago... TATA!

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The Legend of Sleepy Hollow

2006-07-09T09:50:00.000+08:00

Did I tell you guys that my dad install this new TV in my room? Anyway it was installed last week... Damn cheap! Only 50 bucks but it is quite damn good... Bought from some hotel cause they want to upgrade to plasma or something.

Last night I was watching Sleep Hollow! Seriously... I cannot understand what they are saying fully. But it is damn nice! Damn sick though... You can see the person cutting her own hand. Then you also can see the horseman cutting off the heads. SO COOL!

Yesterday went for official rehersals for the concert. SUCKS! Miss Lim made us all just stand there like idiots listening to other people playing. My legs were already hurting like shitty shit shit! Then one person was playing this twinkle twinkle little star... I was with my friend Audrey when we heard someone singing the song. We burst into peels of laughter cause the person was practically singing-whispering.

Last time I talked to Audrey was last year... She is quite damn nice. She told us that some person wanted to matchmake Miss Lim with this rich dentist guy but they found out that she already had her Mr. Right. Who the hell in the right mind would want to be with Miss Lim? Her mood swings are worse than pregnant women! Audrey told us that this guy was some violinist... Musicians are CRAZY. Ya so anyway we were on the MRT gossiping about Miss Lim... Sometimes she really sucks like shit.

Going to heartland mall later to do my specs. My eyesight is being ruined by all the fugly people that surround me. Like I always say... The blind see the true beauty. HELL YEAH! Shit... I have not done any of my homework. Gotta run! TATA!

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Lame Shiet

2006-07-07T15:58:00.000+08:00

This is some stupid quiz thingy I adapted from my sister. Have fun reading it! The questions are about what you want in guys. Yup at least that is what I think... Haha.

i) He must be super lame like me! HAHA!
ii) No need to be super handsome but must at least be average. Ugly also... Maybe can at long as I can hold my puke for 24/7 around you.
iii) He must LOVE ME for who I am!
iv) He must trust me in ALMOST whatever I say :)
v) Must get along with some of my family members... At least.
vi) Lastly, he must pass my test of craziness. He has to wear my gown on our wedding while I wear his tux. This idea is copyrighted! So... Copycats... SCREW YOU!

Another stupid quiz since my sister wanted me to do it. I will be nice for today...

Three names you go by; Millie. Dude. Slut.
Three parts of my heritage; Chinese. Taiwanese. Thai.
Three things that scare you; Humans. People with thick make-up. Fire.
Three things you are wearing now; Black shorts. White T. Earstick on right ear.
Three of your favourite band/musical artistes right now; Sugarcult. Yellowcard. Busted.
What you want in a relationship other than love; Lameness. Care. Concern. Craziness. Fun.
Two truths and one lie; I am sexy. I have sexy friends. You are sexy.
Three physical things from the opposite sex that appeal to you; Guys are just humans. Nothing special or appealing about them.
Three of your favourite things; Be lame. Watch Neurotically Yours cartoons. Chat on MSN.
Three things you really want badly now; To play soccer with J&J. Eat as much as I can without getting fat. World PEACE!
Three places you really wanna go on vacation; The Caribbean for the clear blue sexy WATERS. America for the FREEDOM. Egypt for the LOVE of mummies!
Three things you wanna do before you die; Speak all words I left unspoken. Appreciate what I have. Love those people who love me.

Foamy Obsession

2006-07-07T14:37:00.000+08:00

FOAMY is BACK! I love him so much cause he rocks so badly! He rants on stuff that actually makes sense. Sometimes... I think that he is my evil twin! We think exactly alike! You guys can watch it at http://www.friendsoffoamy.com. From the main page you click episode guide then go to official episodes. Some of the videos are quite disgusting but some others are really true. I would highly recommend

Episode 029 Secret Admirer
Episode 039 Dating Advice
Episode 043 Fat-Kins Diet
Episode 023 Foamy's Rant

Remember... Foamy is the MASTER! So all you humans better bow to him cause he rocks. Anyway I just went to Friendster for some nonsense... Then I remembered Ying Li telling me that 1S1 went to search for Sebastian Goh in friendster. So I was being as busybody as can be as usual so I decided to check it out. OH MY GOSH! My eyesight is failing me! I saw Sebastian Goh with his ever-so demented face! He had dyed hair with piercings... Yucks. Forget it! I wonder what Foamy will have to say about it!

Seriously... I feel like Foamy sometimes. Always critisizing the world in my own way... Today was super boring. Everyday is boring as long as Mr Crab aka Sebas Goh is around. His lessons are living hell! Even the nickname CRAB is too good for him cause Sebastian the crab is so super sexy. Watched High School Musical again... So damn bored! But that beats being with Sebas Goh...

Oh that reminds me... PEOPLE! You have to buy tickets for my concert! I still have quite alot to sell! The concert is on the 15th of July which is Saturday at 7pm at Waterloo Street. Some of the info is on the ticket itself. But if you want me to show you where it is... You can call me at 94489102 or talk to me or sms me or msn me or whatever. One ticket costs 5 bucks ONLY. Desperate times call for desperate measures. I am gonna drop dead on my bed if you do not mind. Good night!

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Labels are for can soups, you idiot

2006-07-06T19:36:00.000+08:00

My legs hurt like crap! They feel like if I walk another step... They are gonna rip apart. Ran 2.8km for training today... TORTURE! I wanted to fucking give up in the middle of running but... To my surprise... I did not! I simply rock! Anyway my soccerball is ruined! One part of it dropped out when I was going home... ARGH!! Stupid idiotic thing.

Anyway today the lessons were... Boring! With Mr Goh ranting everyday... I guess I could fall asleep to the sound of his voice. I know what he should be! He should be some part-time nannny cause his voice can sing lullabies for the babies cause it is so damn boring it makes you wanna sleep. Life sucks! But at least tomorrow we are gonna go home at 12! No need to suffer Literature or Science! But... There is Pe... Mass run too! Fuck this world. I hate it!

Something else I should be pissed at. Yesterday I posted something about how much Alicia Loh sucks. But fucking blogger had it deleted... Or rather... Removed. I spent like... 15 fucking minutes of my pathetic life typing it. Waste my damn time! Anyway yeah... France won! My gosh... This sucks! Banana! I know you are damn happy you sadistic bastard! How could you ever even support France?

Back to the subject... Why does Alicia Loh suck? Cause she fucking thinks I need her forgiveness. Like... Hello? When the fuck did I do anything wrong? Even if I did... I do not need your fucking forgiveness to live my life. So you shut the fuck up! I do not care if your boyfriend or should I say... Gayfriend is gonna beat me up. Cause all the fucking guys you ever like are all so damn weak! They look like fragile... I am afraid that they will break when I touch them.

Yes one more thing I would like to comment on. Paul Twohill... I know many people are gonna hate me for this. But do I care? No. First of all... He freaking sucks cause he believe in labels. He even claims that he is advertising EMO. My fucking GOD! Emo people are sad people who cut themselves because their life is bad... For example... Their parents abuse them. HE? What the fuck is he? He is fucking making fun of those fucking labels. One day if I ever see him in real life... I am gonna walk up to him. Slap him in the face... Then tell him that labels are for fucking can soups. We are not fucking can soups! We are human beings with feelings! What the fuck do you think you are doing by acting like you are them? You know what? You should just go shoot yourself in the head so I will not have the chance to rip your guts from your stomach.

Ok... Normal fucked up day. This is the conclusion of my little day... FUCK EVERYONE! Sudden outbursts are pretty normal today. Gotta go guys... Gotta do my FUCKing homework.

WHATSERNAME

Head On Collision

2006-07-04T18:43:00.000+08:00

Today was super uber boring! Espically the 3 last periods which were Chinese followed by Maths then Assembly. I really have to give it in to these people... They just will not give up! I am gonna surrender to their boring-ness which is killing me slowly. Seriously... Do they know when to stop? Sorry that I am talking crap. I am suffering from brain concussion! My stupid sister decided to wrestle with me so I knocked my head on the wall... Freaking hurts! My brain is not able to function properly so please forgive me.

This post is gonna be super short due to problems with my nervous system. I seem to be spastic for once in my whole life! Anyway I was looking through my baby photos. My gosh! I am cute! This is the first time I actually am serious about praising myself! I am super uber cute that I refused to believe that the baby in the pic was me! I am ADORBALE! I am so damn happy!

Piano sucks! I cannot stand it anymore! I cannot even memorize my fucking piece! The next rehersal is this Saturday... I am gonna die so badly! The first concert is coming in 2 weeks. Can I shoot myself? All my pieces are dance pieces so they are gonna be super uber fast! Typing really fast kinda helps sometimes. But they have super alot of ornaments! I hate ornaments! I am gonna kill the person who invented them! My last song still sucks... Miss Lim has mentally killed me last week already. Sheesh. I am going mentally retarded due to lack of sleep... Music is starting to unbearable! I thought music heals the soul... Guess I was wrong.

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Drowned?

2006-07-03T10:32:00.000+08:00

I just had the freakiest dream ever. Not really ever. This is the 2nd freakiest dream ever... I dreamed that I was running in this big field. When suddenly the dream turned into the worst nightmare... This storm was brewing. So I ran for cover... But it was too late! I tripped... Then I fell into the river. The rapids were moving fast... I was gasping for air desperately. After struggling for 5 minutes... I lost the battle. Then I drowned... I could even feel myself drowning!

I woke up at 9am with sweat all over... I hate dreams. They are so damn creepy sometimes. The freakiest dream was that I was surrounded with demons of all kinds. They were taking me away as hostage for some deal with heaven or something. I have crazy dreams I know. I always dream of death or the supernatural. I have hardly told anyone about these dreams... But lately... I seem to fall deeper into the supernatural world.

Freaky? Yes... Absolutely. I have connections with the supernatural world... I can feel their pain sometimes. I feel like them. I hate humanity. People seem to think that I am crazy but I am sober. I know what I am saying... I know what I feel. Once I used this voodoo doll on someone... I was randomly poking its face. I hoped the person would disappear from my life forever. Cause I hated him with fury. The very sight of him make me want to rip out his guts... When I used the voodoo on him... He did disappear. He disappeared with ear infection... I never ever saw him again since then. I also have clairvoyant-like visions of the past... I could see Wai Wai in her homeland. I could feel her memories. I even knew why she was so cold... Why she was so sad inside. Why she hated the very sight of me. Because I reminded her of someone she lost so dear to her.

Powerful? Yes... But I have lost it. I have lost it all since the day someone left. Just like Peter Pan... When he has no happy thoughts... His body refuses to let him fly. I guess if that someone is reading this... He would know who the hell he is. I also want to tell him to come back... I also want to tell him that I am sorry. Sorry for being so selfish... Sorry for not opening my heart... Sorry for lying... Sorry for everything. But the possibility of him reading this is like... 1 in 10 billion. He is somewhere in the world which I do not even know where right now. I want to scream so loud that he can hear me. But... I guess it is too late.

Live your life with no word unspoken... Because if you do. You will learn to regret... I wish I could leave with him when he asked me to. But... My family... My home. How could I be so selfish? So I told him that I did not love him anymore. I lied... I am sorry. Really sorry for that. I wish I could have my clairvoyant powers back. So I could feel what he feels... I could understand everything he sees.

My hopes were dashed ever since she came into the picture. He used her to substitute me... I could tell. But I chose to remain silent... I was screaming in the silence. You may see me as HAPPY everyday... But I use that to cover what I feel. I guess it is true that the happiest people are not really that happy at all... All of them have the saddest stories behind their eyes. Anyway I gotta return to reality... Toodles!

WHATSERNAME

2006-07-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

Random Questions About Yourself

Your Favourites
Favourite Colour?
- Silver! Or maybe white...
Favourite Food?
- I eat everything... Except white chocolate.
Favourite Song?
- Too many good songs.
Favourite Movie?
- Peter Pan! Spiderman! All the Disney Classics.
Favourite Sport?
- Soccer perhaps or maybe cycling.
Favourite Season?
- ... That would have to be either Summer or Winter.
Favourite Day of the week?
- Tuesdays.
Favourite ice-cream Flavour?
- Chocolatechip Mint :)
Favourite Book?
- The Hollow Series

Currents
Current mood?
- Apathetic...
Current clothes?
- My pjs.
Current toe-nail colour?
- Normal?
Current Time?
- 10.12PM
Current annoyance?
- Humanity...
Current thought?
- Fishballs!
Current boyfriend/ girlfriend?
- Oh puh-lease! I have class you know...
Current book you are reading?
- The Hollow Series 2nd book... Drowned.

Firsts
First Best Friend?
- Jason I think? That was... P1?
First Crush?
- On myself :)
First Movie?
- Whoever can remember this has abnormally good memory.
First Piercing?
- When I was... 5?
First Music?
- Vegaboys! Haha!
First Car?
- I am not old enough to drive one. I would not buy one even if I were... I prefer bikes.

Lasts
Last Cigarette?
- Smoking is for losers.
Last Drink?
- Milo! Haha...
Last Car Ride?
- Today when I went with my dad to buy dinner. Curry rice!
Last Crush?
- I do not wish to mention his name. Thank you.
Last movie seen?
- Sexy SUPERMAN!
Last Phone Call?
- To my dad asking him to pick me up.
Last CD played?
- Welcome to Loserville. This is the debut album of Son Of Dork. They are SEXY!

Have you evers
Have you ever dated one of your best friends?
- Gosh! No!
Have you ever broken the law?
- Does chewing gum count?
Have you ever been arrested?
- I am smart enough to not be arrested.
Have you ever been on TV?
- No... Why would anyone in the right mind want to do that?
Have you ever kissed someone you didn't know?
- Sadly... Yes.

Randoms
3 things you're wearing?
- Left shoe. Right shoe. Shirt.
4 things you've done today?
- Eat. Sleep. Talk. Walk.
3 Things you can hear rite now?
- My own typing. Eddies' Song by Son Of Dork. My sister on the phone.
4 Things you do when you are bored?
- Eat. Crap. Blog. Plan on mass murder.

1am

2006-07-02T15:02:00.000+08:00

Brazil lost... Can you believe it? Personally... This is so damn... Weird! England was supposed to win Portugal... This is all just so... Weird! Anyway hi guys. Today is another boring day in my life. But at least I got to pig out on jelly! I ate about... 3 cups of jelly! Yeah I also ate 2 packets of Roller Coaster! Oh yeah last night I went out with my family... So damn funny!

We had to do shopping for my concert dress... Yeah I know. I said that I bought one b4... My stupid sister decided to steal it from me. So poor me... I have to buy another one. Anyway it is some sort of blessing in disguise... Know why? Cause I need not wear the stupid dress! I only need to wear this funny looking skirt with flower-ish patterns on it. Makes me look so old! Yeah with this stupid black blouse... Now you can people understand why I hate performing at concerts? Anyway after that my mum decided to be idiotic... You know women love to shop right? I wonder how my dad can stand her sometimes. So anyway we were fooling around in the shopping centre for quite some time b4 my mother decided to go to another one which was like... Right beside the one which we were in.

Anyway I bought fruit! My mum is so damn bimbo! I told her I wanted honeydew... She bought for me rock melon. The rock melon was like... So damn big! I had to practically open my whole mouth to shove it in. Anyway after that we went to this other shopping centre. I was being idiotic! I was being irritating... I could tell from the looks of the people who were buying stuff. I saw this stupid pair of weird shoes which costs... $400 over dollars. The heels were atriciously high! I wonder who the hell can walk without wanting to fall on their face with those shoes. Haha! I was laughing at this woman who was trying it on... She nearly fell on the display shelf! Geez... Anyway I bought this pair of shoes. Look like soccer shoes... But nahh they are not. My sister bought these funny looking pair of shoes that I told her to buy! See... My opinion matters!

We went to this section where we saw this nice shirt. Okay it was nice to me... Happy? Actually I knew that it was for guys. But my mum was blind enough to believe me when I said that it was for ladies! So she actually bought it for me! HAHAHA! Which is so damn dumb! Anyway after 2 hours of mental torture... We went home! Hell yeah! My sister let out gas from her ass in the car... So my dad had to whine down the windows. I was saying hi to random people passing the window. I think I said hi to about 4 people... Only 2 guys actually noticed that I was saying hi to them... But they ignored me! My gosh... They are so damn rude!

Haha. Family outings can be such fun! I went home only to be killed by my mum... She asked me to do my homework till 1am! Anyway I was playing reminisce with myself after my mum left. Well... I did not lie entirely. I did my Chinese homework! Reminisce is so damn fun! But soon I got bored of it... Yeah so I decided to read the 2nd book of 'The Hollow' series! This time it is about Sirens I think. You know those beautiful water creatures who men will fall deeply in love with? Yeah... Them.

Anyway my relatives from Indonesia are coming later. So I have to get off the computer b4 my mum starts ranting at me again. Poor me... I have no life. Toodles!

WHATSERNAME

The Emptiness

2006-07-01T19:03:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY PEOPLE. My life sucks. Okay get the message? Good so I do not have to repeat. I do not even know if I should be angry or sad... Cause my closest friend is on the verge of dying. The only problem is that there is nothing I can do about it. He will not even look or listen to me! So what is the whole damn point of me being there? Sometimes I feel that he is so damn selfish you know... Making me suffer while he continues to rant at me. I know it is not his fault that his parents abuse him or that he is always cutting himself or always venting his anger on me. Cause I am all he has got. I am the only one he can vent his anger on... But I am getting sick of this. When I am not sick... I am freaking tired! When will he stop? Just STOP.

I have been here these 3 years... Always being there for him. When I was sad... He could cheer me up no matter what. Now he is upset... I cannot even do anything! That is the thing that seriously pisses me off. I am just gonna forget about him since I can do nothing but burden him. I am walking away... I do not want to be this... Useless tool anymore. Sometimes I wanna cry I wanna scream I wanna kill... But can I? There is always someone who must be strong... Someone to keep the others hanging on. That person always happens to be me. Why you may ask? I seriously have no idea... So you have to ask the saints.

My pathetic life... I hate Singapore. I hate everything about it. I hate the people here who drive me nuts every time I try. There is totally no room for mistakes. This fact alone annoys the crap outta me. Why not they all just GO AWAY? Leave me alone. Everyday... I wake up... I feel the same stillness. The boring deafening silence... I hear laughter that echoes on inside my mind. Know where it is from? From my childhood... Although I can hardly remember anything about it. I can hear my own laughter... Somehow I have this talent for sounds... Or maybe even pictures. I somehow... Capture them in my mind. So it stays frozen inside my mind... I clearly understand the why people hold onto memories so tightly. The reason is that... While everything else changes, memories remain the same.

I know you guys are sick of hearing my nonsense. I am sick of typing it out myself... But can this world ever be perfect? This fact remains that it can never be. Sad... The world is dying slowly. I try to tell them but... Will anyone stop to listen? Will anyone stop to think why are we alive? I was hearing this song called City Of Angels. There is this phrase in the song... 'we bleed to know we are alive'. Bleeding is nothing... This world sickens me. Sometimes I feel like I love the world... Sometimes I feel I just want everyone to just drop dead.

Anyway yesterday was soccer. Germany VS Argentina! As most of you know... I like both teams. So... Kinda hard for me to decide. I told my mum to bet Argentina win so yeah... I was kinda cheering for Argentina last night. Full time was 1-1 but Germany won the penalty. Wasted chance... Anyway I like the number 4 guy from Argentina. His hair is so funky! The number 20 from Germany is damn violent. Crazy guy... Next up match is Germany VS Italy.

Today was just all the same. My pathetic social life... I went to the library after tuition with my sis. She borrowed this book about war or something. She wanted to do something for her Geog project about war destruction to the Earth or something. I borrowed more of The Hollow series by Christopher Golden as well as Ford Lytle Gilmore. There are 4 books in the whole series I managed to read the first one. Managed to borrow until the 3rd book... The Toa Payoh library does not have the forth one so I guess I will have to go to the other libraries.

Thanks for listening to my bullshit. I have to return to reality... To do my stupid homework. The teachers are seriously planning brutal murder on us. Getting away with murder... We are gonna go out later. My whole family. TATA.

WHATSERNAME

Sleeping With The Light On

2006-06-30T18:59:00.000+08:00

Yo dudes. I just removed the stupid splinter from my hand... Hurts like hell. But anyway this is not the first time... So this experience is nothing new. Last time it was even worse... The stupid splinter got into my nail. So we had to go to Alexandra Hospital to get it out. I remember Mr Kwok said I was very brave cause most girls... Maybe even some guys will cry! Hahaha! I am brave! Finally... Someone has praise me! But it hurt like hell.. I was controlling like hell espically since Mrs Yeo was standing right beside me with the doctor. At first the doctor said that it was quite hard to take it out cause it was soft wood... Somemore the wood broke inside. I was like... What the hell? I thought for the rest of my life I would be walking around with this stupid splinter in my nail. So damn ugly!

Haha anyway yesterday was torturing at the Victoria Concert Hall! I do admit the guy is really talented... But too much is... TOO MUCH! He played like... For 2 whole hours! Except for some stupid short 15 minute break... DAMN! That guy was like... Crazy! He was smiling to himself! Even I do not do that! Sadistic looney! Anyway I could not even talk! I was like... Dying. I told myself to hang in there for about... 1 hour? That was seriously killing me on the inside. I realized that you can easily tell whether one person appreciates classical music or not... From the whole expression... That is so damn obvious. Obviously... I am one of those who cannot appreciate classical music due to my personaility. My music has to be as loud as I am!

Haha anyway my hand hurts after removing the splinter so I am gonna make this really short. So... Yeah. TATA!

WHATSERNAME

School Sucks

2006-06-28T18:46:00.000+08:00

Woot! I love Shane Lancaster! Haha no that is not another actor or singer or anything like that... He is some cool character in this book called The Hollow Horseman by Christopher Golder as well as Ford Lytle Gilmore. This book is the only good book I have read this year! I highly recommend this book to those who love mystery or the supernatural. Or if you love The Legond Of Sleepy Hollow. This book is kinda related that book so I think you guys will enjoy it very much.

Anyway school has already started. This is the 3rd day of school... But it feels like forever! Everyday it all just feels the same! Let me start off on the first day... The first day was much better than I expected. At least I did not get killed by death glares or anything like that. We have these some new teachers like for those swaping subjects like Geog or Music. We have this new teacher for 2 fixed subjects replacing Mrs Lim as well as her good buddy Mrs Neo. The teacher happens to be this guy called Mr Sebastian Goh. Know what? I have really bad impressions on the name Sebastian. His presence... Does not make it any better. His voice is really super soft... Even I can speak louder even though my voice is not very loud. He is like... Super cheesy. Not that I wanna say him or anything but he is just... Cheesy.

Lai Yan Ping said that he was dashing. I was trying not to let my jaw drop off or anything like that. Not that I have any problem with his looks but a lot of people have been saying that to me. I am just quite... Annoyed. Although I hate to admit this... Mrs Lim teaches Maths better than him. Anyway the second day was kinda so-so... Charmaine went with me to Times to use my 20% discount card. I was finding Sleepy Hollow but... To no avail. So I bought this book called Even Vampires Get The Blues by Katie MacAlister.

Back to today... We had to change seats. So I am sitting at the back with Hui Ping which is ok for me. I have no comments on this arrangement. Bing is sitting with Charmaine as usual. Anyway after school I had to stay for this CCA drama thingy... But it started at like... 3.30pm so I decided to follow Bing. Bing brought me to this coffee shop where her dad sells some food. I wanted to pay her dad but she insisted that I did not have to pay. So paiseh! Anyway after that I went to her house... Her house was on the 5th floor. Same as me! I like her lift! Got the flat panel of buttons... You know like the condo one? Yes! Anyway I went to her house for about... 15 minutes I think. Then after that Bing brought me to the bus stop so that I could go back to school.

As we were walking down... This school near her house had just dismissed their students. Let me just say that their students are slower at learning... I think you should know what I mean. I am kinda scared of these people... But no I do not hate them for the way they are. I just have this weird feeling about them. Ok so we walked to the bus stop... The stupid bus was so damn slow! So Bing asked me to take the taxi to school... Haha! Anyway the Uncle was talking to me about CCA cause his son was dunno what. I was only half listening... Haha! Soon the taxi reached the school... I got out after I paid. The Uncle told me I dropped something but I thought I did not so I just left it alone. I dropped my stupid name tag!

I only realized when I was going home on 111 to Orchard. Silly me... Anyway who cares. I am gonna go to the book shop to make another one probably. So that sums up my 3 horrible days at school. I gotta go do my homework... BYE!

WHATSERNAME

Just Wanna Live

2006-06-25T13:40:00.000+08:00

Aloha people! Some crazy lesbo decided to attack my tagboard... How sad! She probably has no life... So she decided to come to my famous blog to attack me. So that people would actually take some time to notice how retarded she is... Oops! I guess I just spilt out her dirty little secret. I hope you guys take notice of her so that that crazy lesbo can stop attacking me with her minature insults. She always curses me on her blog or so I have heard... WOOW. I actually make her happy by talking about me. See what I told you? I let out her little secret... She is lesbian. But if talking about me makes your day... I really do not mind being your little entertainment for your hopless little life. Knowing that someone hates me in this world makes me really very contented. Everyone understand? Okay good I am gonna move on to my next subject.

Anyway... I saw this really cool rainbow yesterday! My dad was driving me to tuition when we saw it... I have not seen any rainbows in about... Hmm... 2 years? My dad told me that he used to make wishes whenever he saw any rainbows cause they are rare... LOL. Yesterday was pretty boring except for the fact that Yeok was talking to me about primary school. We were laughing like crazy about all the stupid things we did together. You guys remember Wang Lai? Wendy actually saw him yesterday near his school!

For those of you who do not know or remember Wang Lai... He is this super violent guy who actually fights with teachers. He is from Hong Kong you know? He was so-called in love with Caleb... Once he wanted to suicide cause Caleb said that he hated him I think. Haha! So damn funny. Oh yes... Caleb once said that we were both cousins right? Okay I am sorry but we lied. That was meant to be the April Fool joke of the year! Not our fault! I cannot believe that most of you guys are still being kept in the dark. Anyway we only said that cause you guys were being irritating by saying that he loved me or I loved him or something around those lines.

Primary school holds so many funny memories! Sometimes I really wish we could go back... Hmm... Oh yes! Marcus! My best guy buddy in the world! Marcus Marcus Marcus! I miss him so much! But now... I can only guess where he is in the world. Sad story I know... I really do miss him. We had so much fun getting into trouble together... I never thought I would say this but... I miss all of you so much! I would give it all away if only I could return to those times...

Enough of my little... Emotional speech. Haha! Anyway I went out with Charmaine on Friday to survey for our soccer jerseys. But actually... We were mostly fooling around the shopping mall. Espically in Toys R Us! That is the most fun place ever! We were actually playing with light sabres... I was holding the green one... So I said I was YODA! Charmaine was holding the blue one... We kinda forgot we held the blue one so we just started 'fighting'. We were practically being idiots while everyone just stared at us... But seriously... Who cares? We are just having some fun! That is not illegal... Right?

So we went around Metro looking like morons... Trying on stupid shoes. Doing stupid stuff... Wearing ugly hats. All those retarded stuff! Haha so in the end we walked till kinda late... Yup then Charmaine had to go eat dinner with her family so I went home. The day was so damn funny! Hope we get to be this retarded sometime! Anyway I gotta go... TATA people.

WHATSERNAME

Some Comments About Me

2006-06-24T15:30:00.000+08:00

Your humour is... Offensive. You are outgoing, confident and spontanious. Although at times... Irresponsible, short-sighted and reckless. At your best, you are confident and take life by the horns. You live for the moment and are tons of fun. At your worst, you will drown your problems in risky behaviors. You don't consider the consquences and may do things you regret.

People envy you for your courage. You have a heart of gold, and you're very brave. You're a self sacraficing human being that everyone thinks might be too good for this world. But don't listen to 'them', you're special. Courage is something people must learn to achieve and earn, but it's almost as if you've been born with it. You hate to admit somethings, but you have weaknesses and fears. People look up to you as a leader, and even if you don't want to be a leader, just know that there are younger kids that want to be just like you. Courage was what the lion wanted, but he already had it, he just had to look harder.

I wouldn't be surprised if I saw horns coming out of your head. Your conscience wants you to make everyone elses lives miserable. You make worst days seem like the best! When you're in trouble, you make the best of it. By getting into MORE trouble! You are care free, laughable, and very mischevious. People like your sense of humor, and the way you can change any type of situation into a funny one. But if anyone crosses you path, they better beware. You have short fuse. And if you're in a bad mood, you'll STAY in a bad mood for the entire day. You get pissed off often. And you're not the type of person to say sorry, and for learning lessons. Not an option. You don't listen to them. You don't listen to anybody but yourself. I mean, why does everyone think your sucha bad kid? You're just a harmless angel. It's not like you knew the grass would catch on fire if you threw a lighted match on it.

Call 1800-BIATCH for free sex with Ester!

2006-06-23T15:20:00.000+08:00

Hey guys. I got some good news for you perverts out there. There is free sex available for you! Please thank me after you have gotten your share of her. I can tell you... Her body rating is like... 1 out of 10. But she is selling her body for free... So you should not have too high expectations of her. Call 1800-BIATCH for free sex trials with her. She is available at most times except for school cause she is too busy trying to learn about the human body parts. She is particularly interested in sex organs. Please give her the call if you are really desperate. Or not... I suggest you go to Geylang to pay for REAL women which are of higher quality than her. Thank you for your time. I hope you heed my advice. Oh yes one more thing... She had HIV positive. So I suggest you guys use condoms with extra protection. I can even show you which condoms to buy. Ester loves strawberry flavoured one... So if you plan on making her happy. I suggest you buy those.

Oh yes, Ester loves going to Hotel 81. She told me that the room service was excellent. I think she often patronizes their hotel so she knows the staff pretty well. By the way my perverted friends, please do not blame me if your penises start to shrink when you look at Ester's body. It is really not my fault that she's born with such a 'fabulous' figure.

She asked my to do free advertising for her as she has no money to advertise personally. Since my blog has at least 10 visitors per day, she decided that it would be best that I helped her. I, being the kind girl I am, decided to help her.

Those horny men out there please! Help Ester! She desperately needs you. She needs to fulfil her sexual desires. She will usually resort to violence if she does not fulfil her sexual fantasies. Which happens very often due to the fact that she has no money to advertise. What's more, she has to go to the house of condoms everyday to buy new condoms.

Oh yes one more thing to warn you perverts out there. Ester will resort to extreme violence if you refuse to have sex with her when she asks. She will threaten to slice off your penis and make you impotent. But please do not worry, by that time, Charmaine the great or I the QUEEN. Would have probably reached the scene. We will save you from her evil sexual fantasies.

Anyone who could sponsor us with some sex toys? We really need it to save lives! If Ester does not get what she wants, she will start to rape everyone around her. She does not care about their feelings or whether they have HIV positive or STDs or anything like that. She just wants SEX. She craves for it every single day.

She even once had sex with a pig as they are said to have orgasms that last up till 30 minutes which will lift Ester into great heights of pleasure. She had sex with some dogs once, that's the only reason why she has rabies. Forgive Ester, she gives into temptations too easily. She cannot control her needs and sexual frustrations. That is why I must tell you guys who are not interested in her, to stay as far as possible away from her. Before she decides that you will be her next target.

With my best wishes for you perverts and Ester, I wish you all a happy love making session. All the best! Hope you guys don't get HIV positive or STDs.

WHATSERNAME

Lesbian on the loose!

2006-06-22T12:00:00.000+08:00

People I am gonna tell you this secret. But it will not be secret anymore since you guys already know... ESTER LEE is... Lesbian! WOOT. But she denies it. How sad! Living in denial is one of the most painful things ever. Never get too close to her if you are of the female sex... But if you are some very manly guy... Also please stay away from her. She targets innocent people who are very insecure. That is why I will never fall prey. Enough about that little lesbian. You people deserve to know better stuff than that.

I fell sick at camp. WOOT. Can I hear someone say HELL YEAH? Anyway I should not be saying HELL YEAH cause I hate medicine. Yesterday was kinda bad for me cause I was not feeling very well... Yeah then we had to do these outdoor activities which made me feel sick. But I think I am fine right now. I even wanna play soccer but my mum keeps insisting that I stay home. I have not done all of my homework. GGness. Who cares... Shh I am brilliant. Haha that was meant to be secret. Oops, my bad.

OH SHUCKS. I have not ate my medicine. My bad. Okay done... Ate already. My mum is asking me to practise the piano. Tata my pals.

WHATSERNAME

LOSER with the Capital L

2006-06-20T12:20:00.000+08:00

HEYY GUYS. What is up? I was being super bored... So I decided to drop by someone person's blog. Her blog is so full of shit just as she is. She thinks by insulting me I will get mad. I am laughing so hard I am gonna cry. Tears of joy! Guess who is that person? HAHA. ESTER LEE. The ultimate loser. Thinking by insulting me I will end my life? Or get as pissed as you are? You are obviously lying to yourself. No wonder everyone thinks you are so irritating. I totally agree with them... All the people you hate must totally rock. Know why? They know how to choose their friends wisely! Woot we are sexy people. Sexy people do not fight with fugly people... OOPS! Did I hurt your feelings? Well... This is life so deal with it. I love hacking yes... Got any problems with that? I wanna be the world's top international hacker. I will hack everything you ever own. Wow that is so great! Woooow! I am so damn happy living in my sadistic little world. Torturing people like you is the best sport ever. HELL YEAH.

You always think that you're such a little punk right? LMFAO. I do not wish to hit you cause you are not even worth it. You are CHEAP. Woow. Want me to explain that to you? You are like... Obsessed with me. Stop being such a fucking lesbian. No one likes you! Look... Listen to me. GET A LIFE! I am being super nice to you by giving you my advice. I know you are in love with Charmaine... I feel so sorry for Charmaine. I know you love me. But sorry I would rather love pigs than you. Nah I would rather love HELL than you... You are much worse than the 18th level of hell. I do not even know how you can be a Christian with your swearing nonsense. I shall forgive your stupidity... I pity your parents for having you. I really do. They have my deepest sympathy.

So Ester... What I am trying to say is that. I will forgive you for your stupidity. Everyone has the authority to be stupid but I think you are abusing that authority. OOPS. Did I hurt your feelings again? I am so UN-SORRY about it. Hope your life is WONDERFUL :)

Graciously from
QUEENOFTHEDAMNED

I HATE CAMPS.

2006-06-20T11:30:00.000+08:00

AH FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. Guess what? Tmr is the fucking canoeing fucking camp. Sorry for all the FUCKs here. I am seriously sick in the gut. I wanna die. I wanna die. Kill me. Kill me. I think I cannot take this. I am gonna go mad. I am going mad. Mad I am going. The madness is driving me mad. I am mad of the madness. I am FUCKED UP. I HATE CAMPS. Would some fucking person just fucking help me? I woud repay you in every way possible. I fucking HATE this. FUCK. Yiping is not online so I cannot ask her what time I have to go to the school. AH. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. Can someone please shoot me? I really wanna die. Dying is my only way out now... I am typing like super noisy cause I am super agitated right now. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. AHHHH... I hate my life!

Forget it. I am so fucking fucked up now I do not even know what the fuck I am fucking say. I only see FUCKs in every single sentence. Anyway I am gonna calm down then pack my stuff... Then scream my lungs out about how much I hate camps. Then whine the whole night through... Then not sleep at night but start cursing the person who ever invented CAMPS. Canoeing camp is fucking torture. TORTURE! Look at that fucking word! The look of it is enough to scare the shit outta my soul... They are gonna make me look like... CRAP. AHHH. I am crap... Crap am I. I am stupid... Stupid am I. I am fucking not making any fucking sense. Sorry for fucking around but FUCK is the only word that can express my fucking feelings towards this fucking camp.

Okay forget it I am so gonna just fucking clam down rather than fucking vent my anger on the keyboard. Okay anyway I just watched espisode 16 of the Champion. The stupid Yilin is so damn bitchy. How can she go put the steriods thingy in her drink. Stupid bitch. Anyway went to watch She's the man. Haha super funny. Then Kris was like... Saying this Duke guy was super hot. One Passion. FOOTBALL. WOOT. Anyway ya... I suggest you people go watch it... Sexy!

Anyway Charmaine... Did not come. What the fuck is her prob? Who cares about her. She wanna do whatever I cannot stop her. She has her own legs to run or jump or whatever. Hmm... Ya then after we watch She's the man Kris wanted to buy her dress for the concert. LMFAO. She chose this funny Arabic dress which is like for little kids. LMFAO. She is super small in size. Anyway yeah so we went home after that.

There goes my last day of FREEDOM! Love you guys. Please bless me that I do not die of my allegy to camps. Pray for me.

WHATSERNAME

Resign To Fate?

2006-06-19T12:30:00.000+08:00

Oh shit. I think I forgot to go for piano lesson today... Oh shit. I am fucking dead... DEAD. I mean dead as in... REALLY DEAD. Miss Lim is so gonna go crouching tiger hidden dragon on my ass. Prepare to go for my funeral people.

Anyway today Charmaine came back from Russia. She claimed that it was boring... HAHA. I was at my grammy's when she suddenly decided to ask me out. Charmaine brought me to this stupid place where we walked in circles. Charmaine! Your stupid idea of going to that stupid damn place. How dare you... You crazy old hag! Anyway she sent me to the death sentence again... Thai Express! But she never force me to eat whatever green curry again. Or else I would have killed her. That was near the Esplanade... That Charmaine suddenly wanted to go there. HAHA. She is damn full of nonsense. You will understand why when you know her.

After that we went to Marina Square... Charmaine was going into almost every shop. HAHAHAHA... Actually not really... I am just exaggerating. Charmaine started commenting on some clothes that some random people were wearing. The most comments were on those OLD skirts. Hahaha somehow they have caught her attention today. She then said what her skirt is not 2nd handed... What fresh handed or what fresh chicken whatever. So lame right? Please tell me she is lame cause even she knows that she is super lame. We are SUPER...

Okay enough of my superficial crap... Just now went down with Flying Parrot aka Kris. Penguin aka Cheryl. Flying Turkey aka Michie. Polar Bear aka ME. HAHAHA. I went out with myself... Haha nahh Chermaine tagged along. Anyway Polar Bears are hott! We have sexy thick white fur... We have FATS! Fats are super sexy! Haha kidding. Anyway PARROT kept asking me about... The confession that AHEM made. I am so not gonna name him... Makes me damn pissed off.

Hmm... Let me get back to the morning before I went to grammy's. I was at home reading doing my phrase book! Argh. I freaking hate homework. Anyway I was doing it half way when my mum suggested we go visit my grammy. She is really lonely cause my uncle has to work... His kids are at tuition or school. Then my aunt is also at work or something. Yeah... Anyway we went to LOT 1 before we went to her house cause we wanted to buy something for her to eat.

We went to popular first to spend some 20% discount coupon thingy. Hahaha I bought some pens. Actually I wanted to buy comics but my mum always scolds me... Hmm so after that we went to the basement where we bought some cake for grammy. My mum is so piggish! She said she was full... Then she bought something to eat. Not only that! She forced me to eat with her! Pure evilness in her. Anyway saw one of the top 12 contestants in SG idol there. The Rahima or something. Whatever her name is. Her voice is weird when she talks...

Anyway we then went to grammy's. I was reading some shit from my textbook when my grammy came to talk to me. Oh my... She scares me! She started telling me about death or something. Like if she died she would go to heaven... Then what she will bless us. Oh gosh... This is scary! I cannot stand people telling me this kinda stuff. Of course I did not say that to her face... She is 84! How can she possibly withstand the blow to the face? Anyway she gave me her photo. LOL she was learning to sing. She told me that if I could not see her again... I could always look at the photo. She is really starting to scare me.

Anyway that was my stupid lame day. Yeah... I know. Today was pretty boring... Except for the fact that the crazy cranky Charmaine has returned! Muahaha I can torture her finally after 10 days. Charmaine = Evil! Nothing else to say guys... Seeya.

WHATSERNAME

50 Random Questions

2006-06-18T12:50:00.000+08:00

1.How are you feeling today?
Apathetic... As usual.

2. Do you like having your picture taken? Why or why not?
NO WAY. Only 'self-obsessed' losers need to have their pictures taken.

3. What is the craziest thing you have ever done?
Hmm... Dropped water bombs outside someone door? The person screamed so damn loud!

4. Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings? Why?
Lord of the Rings... Duh! Harry Potter is totally shitty.

5. Have you ever done a jigsaw puzzle? How many pieces?
Yeah... 1000 pieces.

6. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?
I would go to... All the theme parks! I could have fun from dawn till dusk!

7. Write the first word/phrase that pops in your mind when I say... DUDE!
Where's my car?

8. What is your favourite dessert?
Er... Too many?

9. Name someone you would never forget even if you suffer from brain concussion.
Hmm... Xavier Christopher James! My beloved Banana! My gay boyfriend... Haha.

10. Do you own any pets?
Used to have 7 hamsters. All of them died...

11. Describe the nicest thing someone has ever done for you.
Hmm... Er... I have no idea.

12. Do you have any siblings?
One elder sister who enjoys annoying the shit outta me.

13. What colour are most of your clothes?
White or black.

14. Have you ever written any songs?
Yeah tried to... Failed miserably

15. Tell me about your dream last night.
Haha. My dream was about... Peter Parker! Peter Pan! Peter Pevensie! They are HOTT!

16. Who do you currently fancy?
Peter Pan! Peter Parker! Peter Pevensie! Jeremy Sumpter! Hott guys!

17. Are you easily influenced by other people, or current trends?
No... I have my own style. Trends are for people who do not have their own fashion sense.

18. Name your best quality.
My craziness... I mean if you think that it is GOOD in any way.

19. Name your worst quality.
Hmm... Too many bad qualities to name.

20. Can you do different accents?
SURE! Wanna hear?

21. Ever seriously questioned your sanity?
Nah. I have no sanity :)

22. How long do you take to shower?
About... 10 minutes?

23. Do you like hats/caps?
No... They look... Weird.

24. What sports have you never played but desperately want to?
Hmm... I want to play ice hockey!

25. When I say gun you say...?
BANG!

26. TV or Radio?
TV! DUH.

27. Have you ever actually fell in love with an imaginary character?
Yeah... Peter Parker! Peter Pevensie! Peter Pan!

28. What is the most daring thing someone did for you?
Er... Banana did a strip dance when I backed out on my dare. He is my knight in shiny armour! Nah... He is my gay boyfriend but I still love him.

29. How many CDs do you own?
40+ I think... Not very sure.

30. Describe your perfect day.
FUN FUN FUN.

31. Gum or Chocolate?
Chocolate. DUH.

32. Name someone who has made your life a lot better.
Hmm... Banana?

33. Name your favourite type of music. Why?
Punk. The lyrics are meaning... The beat is nice!

34. Cats or Dogs?
Dogs are cuter. LOL.

35. Motorbikes or Cars?
Motorbikes. They are much hotter!

36. How many mirrors do you have?
Er... Personal ones? None.

37. Have you ever tried canoeing?
I am in that CCA... LOL.

38. Any instruments you know how to play?
Er... Kinda many. The most common which is the piano.

39. Have you ever said lol in real life without thinking about it?
Yes... Bad habit of mine.

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
I will let you know.

41. Can you eat when people are staring at you?
Yeah sure... I will eat loudly to disgust them all.

42. What do you do online?
Chat... Listen to music... Blog... Do stupid surveys...

43. Ever written something on your forehead?
Yeah I wrote something like... RAWKER!

44. Can you dance?
To me... Everyone can dance!

45. Have you ever tried drinking up from your nose?
Err... No? But I can try!

46. Would you rather burn to death, freeze to death, starve to death or cry to death?
Hmm... I would rather cry to death.

47. If you knew that the world was ending in 24 hours, what would you do?
I would watch all the funniest movies in the world. Then laugh my last 24 hours away.

48. What colour are your favourite shoes?
White and black.

49. What did you aspire to be when you were a kid.
I wanted to be a professional acrobat. HAHAHA.

50. Name your no.1 passion in life.
Music.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

2006-06-18T05:35:00.000+08:00

Howdy losers! How was your day? I just came back from eating tim sum. I went to this really old restaurant that I used to go very often when I was really really young. Okay so we were eating this thing with some prawns in it. Kris dropped it on the table then she gave it to me... HAHAHAHA. Guess what I did? I gave it to my mother. Then after she ate it... Then I told her that it had dropped on the table before. Then my uncle was laughing at me... Then he said I very 'sincere'... LOL of course. Millie is the most sincere person in the whole wide world. Anyway after we ate... My sister went home. I went with Kris to the MRT station cause I had to buy some Chinese assesment book. While I was finding the book... This little boy started singing Old Macdonald. Kris burst into heaps of laughter while I was trying to shut my mouth. Then the mother of the little boy was looking at us like we were insane. Speaking of insane... There was this crazy guy who purposely knocked into Kris. He practically knocked into every female he saw. I think that he is perverted... Ew!

Anyway were you wondering how Kris was here for tim sum? Actually she came to stay last night. Earlier yesterday... We went to watch Garfield 2. So damn retarded. We went to Plazaa Sing to watch... While we were queueing for tickets. Kris saw this guy that she thought was cute. She is boy-crazy I know... Please try to forgive her idiotic little mind. His girlfriend kinda resembled my friend whom I have not seen in some time. Of course I did not go approach her cause even if she is my friend... I think she would have forgotten me.

Anyway WORLD CUP fever is here! Argentina is SEXY. Love them. They won by 6 goals! Sexy people! You people must vote for Argentina or Germany! They are SEXY. That was about it... Er... I am so damn bored. Everyone in the house is asleep. Leaving me all alone. Boohoo... How can they do this to me? LOL anyway this is some little survey for you people to ask other people to do for you. You can copy it then paste it then send it to your friends. Love you sexy peeps. :)

Am I?
1. Quiet or Loud?
2. Short or Tall?
3. Weird or Original?
4. Nice or Mean?
5. Friendly or Anti-Social?
6. Boring or Fun?
7. Book-smart or Street-smart?
8. Crazy or Crazier?
9. Attractive or Unattractive?
10. Retarded or Stupid?
11. Funny or Corny?
12. Hot or Cool?
13. Loyal or Fickle?
14. Punctual or Tardy?
15. Romantic or Totally Unromantic?

Yes or No?
1. Mentally ill?
2. Nerdy?
3. Bitchy?
4. Asshole?
5. Petty?
6. Two-faced?
7. Obnoxious?
8. Childish?
9. Mature?
10. Moody?
11. Slacker?
12. Sadistic?
13. Good-looking?
14. Arrogant?
15. Cute?

Random Questions
1. What do you think I will be when I grow up?
2. Do you think I will get married?
3. Who do you think I will marry?
4. When is my birthday?
5. Who is my best friend?
6. What is my favourite colour?
7. What song(s) remind(s) you of me?
8. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?
9. What would you name me if you had the chance?
10. Have you ever dreamt of me?
11. What was the dream about?
10. What was your first impression of me?

Stalker or Admirer?

2006-06-16T23:35:00.000+08:00

What the fuck? Sorry to start with those 3 words... But... My cousin has some creepy stalker who is like... After her? He is fucking sick! I saw his friendster... His pictures had all like girls showing off their underwear. I mean... WHAT THE FUCK? He called my cousin yesterday then started telling her that he wanted to have sex with her. He can go fuck himself for all I care... Bloody lecher! I hope he fucking burns in hell for this shit. He also called her a few days back... Asking her to go to some modelling agency. What the fuck? I think he wants to rape her or something. But as long as I live... I will not allow that to happen to my cousin. I will kill him with my bare hands if I have to. I hate lechers!

That reminds me of Chris. That bloody fucker who goes around preying on innocent girls. He is so unlucky to have met me... The lecher-hater. I showed him who is the QUEEN. That crazy fucker asked me what was my bra size. What the fuck? What the hell is wrong with these fuckers? They are lucky I do not have any guns or toothpicks. Or else I would surely attempt to kill all of them. Anyway let me come to this close...

Any fucking lecher who goes near my friends or relatives will fucking die due to the fact that I will kill them with my bare hands. I will make sure you burn in hell for this shit.

Okay... Enough of that drama. Anyway someone confessed that he liked me. Okay how bad can my fucked up life get? I meet this horrible pervs. Then this crazy guy comes confessing to me. But anyway I laughed it off... I also do. So if anyone thinks of confessing to me... You better make sure I like you. Or else you are probably gonna die of utter disappointment... I am probably gonna act like I never heard you. Or I would avoid you in every possible way.

Why must you people torture me? I hate humanity. You people are just making it much worse... I am officially going insane again. Why do so many damn fucking people apologize to me when they do not even mean it? I am fucking sick of this! Argh.

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Homework Hysteria

2006-06-16T10:35:00.000+08:00

Oh people. Help me! I hate homework! I wanna kill it or tell the teacher that my dog ate it. The only problem is that I do not have any dogs. Okay whatever I dunno what the hell I am talking about anyway... I am so damn sick of this whole damn world.

Everything they know is homework... Forget it! Whatever I do... The world will still continue to spin... Anyway sorry for not posting sooner. I had this horrible fever yesterday so yeah I could not post... Lately I have been watching the series The Champion. The one which was last time on Channel 8. Yeah on youtube... Anyway this post is gonna be really short cause I gotta go practise my piano. My mum has been nagging away at me since the moment I got well... Looks like I have to continue to remain ill to get her to shut up. Okay tata guys!

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Hum Dee Dee Dee La La

2006-06-13T03:45:00.000+08:00

Heya peeps! Wassup? How is everyone doing? I bet you guys missed me! I have not posted for about... 2days. I am so freaking bored... But I am not gonna do homework. Unlike Meiyi who is so damn nerdy... She keeps asking me if I have done my homework. Get the picture? People like me... Do not DO homework. I do not hate homework cause I do not even have to do it... I can always take my time. You people should go for some time management courses.

Anyway I went to buy new shoes again yesterday... Know why? Cause my stupid converse sneakers caused my poor feet to have four blisters. One which is currently bleeding like crap. Anyway I bought these Adidas shoes which is white with some black stripes. Yeah then I decided to buy some books too. Knowing me... I love vampires. So I bought both books on vampires. One which is written by Anne Rice called the interview with the vampire. Another which is written by Elizabeth Kostova called the historian. I am gonna read the historian first cause my sister wants to read the interview with the vampire. Anyway so ya... I am really damn unlucky. Know why? Cause my mother wanted me to buy this frilly dress which is so damn... Disgusting. Okay disgusting is really an understatement here... The fact is that it is so much more WORSE than you can imagine. My mother wanted me to buy it cause of the upcoming piano concert where I am sure that I am gonna screw up in front of everyone... Then die of eternal embarrassment. Anyway I further disgraced myself in front of the lady selling us the dress cause I wore it back to front... Argh! Whatever. I know what you are thinking right now. Okay so anyway we bought it cause I have no other dress to wear. Poor old me...

Forget all that embarrassing crap... Talk about happy stuff! I finally know what kind of guy I like! Woot! This is some weird miracle! Hahahahaha... The guy I would like would be like... Aladdin! Yeah I know that he is not your typical handsome muscular prince or knight in shining armour. But he really is funny... Yeah he rocks. At least he is not EGO unlike some guys which is totally sickening me. Oh yeah my sister is ill... I dunno if I should be happy or sad. Hm... Okay it is time for LUNCH! Gotta go! Seeya!

WHATSERNAME

Tchaikovsky?

2006-06-11T13:10:00.000+08:00

Jello guys! Decided to post something up as I am damn bored. I woke up with this horrible terrible pain in my head... So I did not go to Chinese tuition. There was aural practice for piano today... My stupid sister kept makinng us laugh by her way of saying Tchaikovsky... But I bet all you normal people would probably say it wrongly anyway. Yeah so I do not blame you all. Since I am so nice. Hmm yeah so that is about it... Just some interesting stuff I thought would interest you guys. Enjoy!

How to make a Millie

Ingredients:
1 part pride
3 parts crazyiness
5 parts ego

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Serve with a slice of fitness and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Nightmare Before Christmas

2006-06-10T09:40:00.000+08:00

Howdy partners! Charmaine is going to Russia today... Aww so sad! LOL anyway I got to watch The Nightmare Before Christmas! I love that show! I love love love it! You people can watch it too... I am uploading it on www.youtube.com... Go find the user called checkeredcranberries which is me. I have not finished uploading the whole movie yet... But I think I have uploaded 3 portions of the movie. So if you guys are interested in watching... Go ahead!

Anyway today I did some homework... Finally! I need about 100 more phrases for my stupid phrase book. Tomorrow there is stupid oral lessons for piano! There is also Chinese tuition! What the hell is this world coming to? I am so gonna just kill myself. There is nothing much interesting that happened today. Boring day. Oh well... At least I know how to make mini-movies with the computer! I am so damn proud of myself!

Oh yeah I am gonna watch The Little Mermaid again! Oh yay. Joy to the world! I have my VCDs to make up for the boring times in my life. Spice up my life... Like Charmaine said. Oh yeah you know that day we were discussing about those Disney Princesses.

Charmaine is... Princess Aurora aka from Sleeping Beauty
Bing is... Snow White
Tania is... Princess Jasmine aka from Aladdin
I am... Belle!

I think you people should know who Belle right? Cause if you do not... Muahaha I will kill you. Nah I am in no mood to kill anyone now. I am so damn bored. I rather you play with me then I watch you die in front of me. No fun! Anyway I gotta go guys. Tata. Love you all even though you guys do not love me... Boohoo!

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Bitch...

2006-06-09T14:20:00.000+08:00

Heyy people. Sorry that I have not been posting these few days... Have been going out quite alot. Yeah I know... I have not done alot of my damn homework. But seriously... Holidays are meant to be fun? Anyway I just made someone mad at me I think... I mean... Seriously it is not my prob it is his prob that he does not want to tell me. What the hell can I do? Watch him die? I may be cruel but not THAT cruel...

Anyway went out yst. With Wendy... We made the person who is mad with me aka Yeok wait for almost 30 minutes! I know! So damn embarrassing having some guy wait for you for so damn long! Anyway he was acting like our bodyguard... He was not saying anything. He just kepy waiting for us. Which is so damn stupid. I even tried talking to him nicely. But he... ARGH! Whatever. I give up hope on him... Even Wendy says he is stupid! Ok fine maybe he is not stupid... But he is so damn dull! Anyway we were making ourselves look like fools... Running around the whole Toa Payoh finding all our classmates. We managed to find 2... Which is... Not bad for noobs like us! Ok so then we went to Bishan to... I dunno? I was just walking around eating the funny stick thingies! Damn hard to eat! Ok so then we went home I think... I am not really gonna go into detail cause I am quite damn tired.

Today went out with Charmaine... Went to some places. Bought this stupid voodoo doll... I think I need 100000 of those... So I can make everyone I dislike suffer. Bought this football keychain also. Kinda cute. Anyway Charmaine tried to kill me with Thai Express! The food was damn hot... The green curry is so freaky! I am never gonna eat Thai food ever again. So damn... Spicy! Anyway I gave Charmaine bowlin lessons. Wanna know more? Contact Coach Millie at x_queenofthedamned_x@hotmail.com... Yeah ok whatever. LOL. Reached home at about 9+...
Anyway I am pissed off now... Know why? I will tell you in the next paragraph.

Fucking Ester! What is your damn fucking fucked up problem? Can you just live your own damn life? Are you so damn free to mess with ours? Go to hell... Kiss your own fucking ass bitch! You think you are damn nice? Well... I am here to prove your damn theory wrong! Believe me... Not many like you. You may think I am damn mean but whatever. I cannot believe that I am mean for telling the truth. Anyway just go fuck yourself... Oh yeah... Leave me alone! No... I should say... Leave US alone! Live your own life! Or else you can jump off the stupid building. I will not care... I will not even go to your funeral. Believe me when I say so. Your existance insults humanity already. Although I hate humans... I must still admit that I am one. So please do not start with me... Know why? Cause you will lose. So shut the fuck up bitch! Go fuck yourself. Think you are great? I suggest you look in the mirror. You will see the most idiotic fucker in the world. Oh yeah the words 'idiotic fucker' are written on your head. Sorry I did not tell you that earlier fucker. Oh ya... Also one more thing fucker. Do not speak unless spoken to... Not spoken at. Thanks for listening to my stupid speech even if you are not fucking Ester.

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Fucking Bday To Me!

2006-06-07T11:42:00.000+08:00

Yo dudes! Happy bday to me! Oh hell yeah. Stupid weather! Gonna rain! On my bday somemore... They keep saying that it is some stupid cursed day. Curse them all! How can they ever say that? My hands are freezing... For no particular reason. My stupid sister is being prissy again. Can she save that for another day? I refuse to be angry on my bday.

Anyway 3 people including my sis have tried to piss me off this morning already... I will not let them gain pleasure from seeing me upset. Why is it everytime I want to be happy some bloody jokers want to piss me off so bad? I want to kill everyone! Serious! Relax I can control my temper. I am not so damn stupid to just blow my top anyhow for anyone. Maybe gonna watch the Omen later. Depends on my sister... Maybe I could even watch it by myself. Since she is so pathetic!

Ok so Kris came over to stay the night before... Cause she was going out with us yesterday. We went to buy waffles in the morning. When we were walking back... We walked past this coffeeshop. This stupid fucking perverted asshole bitch wolf whistled at us! I wanna rip of his head... His death brings me sure delight! I hope he fucking burns in hell for that shit. I am fucking tired of the world collasping on me doing stupid things to piss me off... My eyes hurt. I am fucking tired. Can you fuckers give it some rest? Let me be happy for just ONE day? ONE day is all I am asking!

So anyway we went to East Coast... We were cycling damn fast when I had 3 blisters on my legs. Kris had this really ugly bruise on her left leg. My stupid sister remained unharmed. Ok we were sitting down when there was this reddish left stuff on the floor... I steped on it with my new sneakers! Ah fuck... I washed them myself. Ok we went to Mac to eat then we went to Paya Lebar to take the train to Jurong East.

The ice skating rink had damn alot of people so we decided not to skate anymore. Fucking waste of time. We then went home... Then when we came home we watched Troy. I love Troy being the sadist I am... I love to see all their blood dripping out of their damn heads. Humans are lucky I was not born in those times because I would have killed the whole world! Humans are pissing me off day by day. I hate you all. I HATE YOU!

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Shoes Anyone?

2006-06-05T09:15:00.000+08:00

Aloha! Finally back after my final spat. I realized something today... Damn stupid! I realized I like someone. Hahahaha! Not Banana he is gay. Or so I think right Banana? Anyway that is for you to find out so I am just gonna leave you guys hanging there trying to guess who that cursed guy is.

I got 2 pairs of new shoes today... One pair are Converse sneakers which is to replace my Nike shoes as well as my school shoes. The second pair are slippers which are colourful to replace my old slippers. I do not understand why people are obsessed with shoes. I just like them to be comfy. Some people I know have like... 30+ pairs of shoes. They are officially nuts! I think I only have 4... 2 which I just mentioned. The other two are sandals. One is for canoeing while the other is just for other crappy uses.

Just came back from piano lesson. Surprisingly Miss Lim did not scold me today! Shocker I know! I did not even play my scales well... So I went there prepared to be scolded. I guess that she is pretty happy today... She started complaining to me about Kris... Hahaha! Everyone tells me their secrets! Hahaha... Ok I better shut up before I reveal anymore. Kris is coming to stay today! We are gonna go out to East Coast Park to cycle tomorrow! Joy to the world! Love it! I know that this post is short but sorry... Nothing really interesting lately. Toodles!

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Sports Fanatic?

2006-06-02T13:14:00.000+08:00

HOLY CRAP! I just deleted the post I wrote! Oh gosh! I am so damn stupid! AHHHH. Forget it. I will restart again. Anyway hello guys. Yesterday was one of the most fun days of my life. I did 3 activities... One which was expected while the other two were unexpected...

Firstly... The expected activity was going to East Coast with BC. BC does not stand for before Christ... Haha it stands for Bing plus Charmaine. Charmaine was the only one who actually rented skates... So we started skating on the same side we usually do... Yeah then the slope which was so damn fun! The wind was like... Blowing in your face. So damn nice. But Charmaine said that her skates had no cushion so she wanted to go back to change cause her leg was hurting. So of course... We had to go back to change the skates with Charmaine.

When she was done... She was coming down from this little but steep slope. Bing did not rush in time to save her so of course... She fell. Yeah when I was helping her up... She punched me in the gut! Ouch! Crazy ass! So anyway we continued to the other way which we usually did not go... That place is like... So damn COOL! We should have gone that way long ago... Anyway I learnt how to cycle with one hand! I am so damn happy! I remember I took 1 whole year to actually learn how to cycle. I fell down countless times while I was learning. So anyway I can also do up the stand up cycling thing! Finally... I have been trying to do that for almost 6 months.

So anyway Kris called me on the way... She asked me to go ice skating with her. I thought she was being nice... But... Actually she wanted me to save her as she was alone with this guy... The first 3 words that popped out in my mind were... WHAT THE HELL? So anyway I was being nice so I agreed to go with her. I also asked Charmaine but Charmaine was not in proper attire... Anyway so we went back... Then Charmaine asked us to go to this extension bridge thing... The view was damn cool! So anyway Bing came up with this plan while Charmaine was shouting to the sea to steal her soft toy... She asked me to put it in my bag.

Later we rode our bikes away from Charmaine. She did not notice until after quite some time. We were both waiting for Charmaine under this shady area. Around the time when Charmaine was near... These group of crazy nudists were walking by. They are so damn disgusting. They know that their figures are like... Horrible shit. But they still walk around half naked. Ewww! Anyway they were looking at Bing. But Bing denied! She said that they were looking at me! But that is not the truth. So anyway Charmaine demanded her stuff back... So we went back to the shop to return the equipment... After 2 hours!

So we went to Mac to eat lunch. I ate McFlurry with regular coke. Of course I stole some fries from BC. Anyway this other nudist came into Mac when I was eating. These people are gross! I am eating okay? I do not risk puking at his face. Oh ya we also saw this MediaCorp actress... She looks like... CRAP. Oops. Did I just say something I should not have said? Okay so we ate finish... We saw this BANANA guy! Haha Banana if you are reading this then please know that you have at least one loyal fan! Then we went back to Paya Lebar MRT station.

BC was bored so they decided to go 3/4 way with me to Jurong East. They took with me to Dover. We were dancing in the train! Haha... Then they went back to Tiong to shop or something. So anyway when I reached Jurong East it was raining heavily! I mean damn damn heavy! Most of the way to the shopping centre was sheltered... But there was this traffic light that I overlooked. Who cares? So anyway I got wet when I reached the skating rink.

There were so damn many people there! I dunno how in the right mind would really wanna skate there... So anyway Kris was with her 'boyfriend'... Her seniors were there too. Yeah there was this guy who was interesting in one of her seniors. Which is like... EW! Okay sorry I just had to do that cause guys are sick fucks. So okay anyway I was being screwed... But at least I can skate without holding the damn thing.

Anyway I fell twice on my butt... Twice on my knees too. I know that is so damn gay... But seriously... Who cares? Everyone probably stared at me like I was some noob. Kris came out with this stupid idea that we should do this train thing. So I held the guy then Kris held me. Then halfway... Kris let go. Then the guy went damn shitty fast even though I told him to stop like... Two million times? Hahaha...

So after that Kris came to Toa Payoh with me... We decided to watch the Benchwarmers! Before the show started while we were buying tickets... We almost did not have enough money! We were digging out every cent we had! The person selling the tickets seemed quiet amused at our stupid act. Hahaha! So anyway we rushed up as we were already late by like... 10 minutes. The movie already started when we got it... The show is so cool! You guys should watch it... Espically if you think you are nerdy or outcasted.

Then I sent Kris to the bus stop... Then I went home. When I reached home it was about... 7.30pm. I was out from home at about 10 in the morning... 9 half hours of playing! My record! I am pretty anti-social you know... So 9 half hours is considered alot for me. Anyway my mother bought Edward Scissorhands for me! she also bought Chucky for my sis. I watched Edward Scissorhands at night till 11+. The story was kinda touching...

So that sums up my yesterday... So damn fun! Anyway at least most of it... Best day of the holiday I suppose. So anyway I think I am gonna go out again on Monday. Yeah Wednesday too. Wonder if any of those days are as fun as yesterday.

So anyway about today... Pretty normal. I woke up at 10+ because my grandma woke me up as she said Chiang Lin was coming. Chiang Lin is the friend of my sister... So anyway ya I was just fooling around on MSN. Until we went out for lunch which was at Long John. I ate combo 2... So damn full! Then after that we brought Chiang Lin to the hub as she was performing Salsa in some place. Then we went to buy some candy... Then we came home... Then I decided to post on my blog. Which is what I am doing now... Haha okay so there is nothing much to say already. So seeya people.

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Robbed Of Memories

2006-06-01T23:25:00.000+08:00

Last night... I was having this little debate with myself about what I did not like Singapore. Hate is really an overstatement. One part of my brain said that it was because I had no freedom... Another said it was because Singaporeans disgrace themselves... The list goes on. Yeah I am weird. I have debates with myself.

Finally... Maths enlightened me! I realized that I did not like Singapore because it robbed me of my childhood memories. Why are they so competitive? When I was 4 or 5 I had piano lessons along with Chinese tuition. This sounds really absurd but it is true. I hardly had much time to play or just fool around. Maybe it is just that I am magnanimous by nature but I do not dislike Singapore because of the people in it or that we have no freedom or that we have to be looked down on or that people think we are some village in China. I just dislike Singapore because they robbed me of something that is priceless. Once lost means gone forever. Yes I am angry but no... I am not upset.

Kris got 90 for her Maths... My mother... Keeps comparing me with her! How many fucking times do I have to tell her that I do not pit myself against others? I hate having to fight someone. The real battle is the fight with yourself. The problem with Singaporeans is that they do not think... They just wanna compare. This is what pisses me off greatly. So what if I cannot do Maths? Does that mean I am stupid? NO. She can fail her English or whatever. But I never fail English. Know why? Cause we are different! You people can never see that since all of you only see with your eyes but never your heart.

AHHH. Humanity drives me insane! Have you ever thought of why we needed to do algebra sums when next time in life... There probably will not be those questions in your daily work? I bet many of you will never think of it. Know why? Cause you have been taught from young to just listen to whatever your parents or elders say. Well... Let me just say that I refuse to compromise. I refuse to do what I do not wish to do. I refuse to be just like everyone else. I refuse to be another trend. I refuse to be someone I am not. This world is filled with blasted nonsense. Know can you see why I am obsessed with Peter Pan? I really envy him... I wish that I could fly away to Neverland with him.

Like he said... Happy thoughts lift you into the air. But I hardly have any happy thoughts... That is what brings me down. I am sick of having to listen to grown ups telling me that Peter Pan is not real. Let me tell you my definition of the word 'REAL'. To me it is what you believe in... This means that it might not be the truth. Ya so many of you are correct me on my little definition. But you know what? I do not care!

Enough of me cursing humanity... I am gonna go out to ECP again. This time with Charmaine... Bing too! Let me just say I am gonna go all crouching tiger hidden dragon on your ass if anyone dares to offend me again. Anyway yesterday Charmaine suggested that we do some dance for Bing. Yeah so Charmaine is gonna do rain while I am gonna do NSYNC. Yeah I know what you are thinking. I am gonna like so damn freaky. Hahaha. Oh my first 'Hahaha' of the day. Okay this post has been long enough. I will go curse humanity in my mind again. Seeya.

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Edward Scissorhands

2006-05-31T14:00:00.000+08:00

ALOHA! Just finished doing the layout not very long ago. Rock right? I love Edward Scissorhands. He is so damn cute... But Charmaine says that he is ugly. What the heck? He is so damn cool right? Tell me that Charmaine is wrong please. Banana says that Edward is my love. Please... I already have Spiderman. Anyway you guys gotta check out the video... Kinda cool I think. Leave comments on the new layout!

Today I was being nerdy! I was studying for almost the whole day! Believe it. Millie the slacker actually studying because she was so damn bored. Yeah I was! This blasted place has got nothing! This place stinks... Ugh. Oh yeah! I caught this really sweet spider today! Quite small actually... But the colours are cool! The body is black as well as the legs with white stripes! Wicked right? Okay sorry influenced by Banana again. He keeps saying wicked these few days so yeah... I kinda got influenced by him since he is my gay partner. Haha nono he is not gay I just think he is. Yeah so anyway I am gonna buy the Edward Scissorhands VCD tomorrow! Oh yes! Finally! When I was younger... This show was screened on TV... But I was too damn tired that day so I decided to miss the show cause I thought it was creepy. Turns out that Banana as well as my sister say that the show simple rocks. Well... So I have to see it at least once right? I know... Movie fanatic alert!

Speaking of buying stuff... I am broke! My sister owes me 15 bucks! Not sure if anyone else owes me money... I am really retarded at remembering stuff to do with money. Oh yeah Wendy says she wants to help me celebrate my birthday... Haha she ruined it! Yeok made it seem like some surprise so everyone did not want to tell me... But Wendy told me straight away! Guess she blew it! I was pissing her off with two words... I think you guys know the two words... CHENG JUN! Hahaha! She loves him I know it I know it! Anyway she admitted it last November... Even though Cheng Jun refused to believe me. So sad! Oh yeah anyway I still have his drawing... The one he drew for me on this really cool place! Looks 3D... Shhh promise not to tell Wendy. Or she will heart-broken for sure. Okay what the hell am I doing? I am actually talking about that bastard who freaking scolded me for nothing! Yeah sure... I am still DAMN angry with him. Who cares. Whatever.

Back to the subject... They were planning some thing for me. Wendy ruined the whole surprise thing... She even told me what Wen Cai was getting for me! Hahaha she even told me what Yeok was getting me. She is so damn funny sometimes. Oh yeah I still owe her her birthday present. Oops. Forgot about it since it was about... One month ago? Lol yeah. Gotta go people. This post has been quite long for me. Oh yeah okay seeya!

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Far Away

2006-05-29T11:54:00.000+08:00

You know what? Yesterday I was doing this funny quiz about LOVE. Which I find quite damn true which causes me to reminisce about this person whom I used to like. Not that I care or anything but there are many coincidences in this world. But this one is kinda too much for me to take. While I was doing that stupid retarded quiz... My stupid player happened to play this stupid song which he so freaking hell adored. Then this stupid email came out. He sent me this stupid e-card for my birthday... Freaky? Yeah it is freaking me out alot. Just cause I watched the eye 10 not long ago... This thing still kinda haunts me. Hahaha speaking of birthdays... Mine is coming soon! So you little people better get me something before I plan on killing you. Haha just kidding.

Psh. I am so damn bored. What should I do? I cannot eat!! What the hell? Believe it! I cannot eat! Eating rocks! I cannot understand why people go on diets. Pure torture. Humans are sadistic really... They torture themselves to look better. I really agree with Foamy on that one. Foamy is so damn cute! Love him loads. Anyway... As I was saying... What should I do? Really bored bored bored. Oh yeah did I mention that yesterday there was Singapore Idol. Which is so damn stupid cause of all the stupid people doing all their gimicks. They think they rock when actually even I can sing better than some of them. What the heck man.

Ok face it. I am bored. That is why I am typing this amount of crap here. Hahaha. Okok let me find something or someone else to harass. Seeya. PSH. Spiderman rocks.

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Peter Pan!

2006-05-28T09:25:00.000+08:00

Just woke up from my 3 hour slumber. Howdy guys! How have you been? The holidays are finally here! After the TORTURE our salvation is finally here! I am so darn happy you know? LOL yeah sure I am... Hail the God of Holidays! Okay... I mean if there is one.

Hahaha I just bought the Peter Pan vcd yesterday. Jeremy Sumpter is so damn cute! I mean cute as in baby cute not as in handsome cute. He looks not more than 13 in that movie but actually at that time he was already 14... So means this year he is 17. Quite old actually. But anyway the movie rocks! Kinda sad in the end when Wendy had to leave Peter. Even the Lost Boys went with Wendy. So means that Peter was all alone in Neverland. How sad! How can Wendy leave him? I thought she liked him. She even gave his first kiss to him which is so damn sweet! Anyway if I were her... I would not have left Neverland. I would rather be a kid forever with Peter than go back to the real world where adults freaking SUCK. Yes that is right. Adults are out to control your life! They want to make you their slaves. Hell yeah! Back to the movie... The best thing is that they can FLY! Yes when I mean FLY I mean FLY! Just think happy thoughts... They lift you up into the air! Well... Peter Pan rocks. That is my concluding statement for the whole movie.

LOL yesterday I also went to watch X-men with Tania... Charmaine... Ester... BingBing. We were making damn alot of noise in the cinema that this guy who was sitting kinda in front of us was really annoyed. But seriously... Who cares about that damn guy? Oh yeah I did this really stupid thing. I put my legs on the seat in front of me... Cause I thought no one was sitting there. Ok so later... Tania bent in front then she saw this guy sitting there. Then she asked me if I put my legs on the seat in front before. Of course I said yes then Tania told me that there was this person sitting in front. My gosh. Stupid I know. Anyway X-men was pretty cool... But the others could not understand cause they do not read Marvel comics. Yup anyway so after that Charmaine went mad with her shopping madness while the res of us just decided to wait outside the shops for her. We were so bored we started playing games.

Yeah okay so the guys became bored then decided to go home while Charmaine came to Toa Payoh. Actually we wanted to catch a movie. But all the movies were either really sucky or we saw them before. Yeah I decided to buy my Marvel Comics... The amazing Spiderman! How dare he! He loves Mary-Jane but he does not love me. So damn heartless. Ahhhh freak! Forget about him... We went to look at the VCD shop. Charmaine saw this one she really liked so she bought it. Hahahaha she is so obsessed. So yesterday ended just fine.

Today was not much better anyway. Boring boring boring. But cheer up people. THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE! Okay I sound like Peter Pan now... Well... Got to go my minions! Seeya!

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2006-05-25T11:15:00.000+08:00

Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
Gender?
How will you commit suicide?	You will set your house on fire and sit alone in the corner as the flames consume you
How many tries will it take?	29
When will you commit suicide?	February 16, 2036
What will your suicide note say?	Fuck All of You!

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Name
Gender
Age
How will you do it?	You will hang yourself
When will you do it?	In the next fifteen years
What will be your reason?	You love someone who doesn't love you back
What will your final words be?	"FUCK YOU!"
Who will cry?	Everyone

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Favorite flavor of ice cream
Current mood
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Why you did it	Physician assisted-- you were terminally ill
Date you die on	December 19, 2033

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Gender
How will you commit suicide	you'll slit your wrists
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Superhero Name	The Bankruptcy Lawyer
Super Power	Mind-Reading
Enemy	Frozen Corpse Of Walt Disney
Mode Of Transportation	Skateboard
Weapon	Wire Hanger

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Your name:

Weapon of Choice:

Katana

Your Favorite Target:

Buddhist Monks

Your Kill Count:

195,551,972

Your Battle Cry:

"Beans."

Years You Spend in Jail:

How Much Money In Damages You Cause:

$187,065,936,670,608

Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 63%

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Name?
How insane do you think you are?
How insane do others think you are?
Choose a phrase.
Level of insanity. (1-10)	7(Meet my clone. She is under my mind control.)
Date you went insane.	July 28, 1999
Favorite Trek series.	TNG
Favorite quote from Hitchhikers guide to the galax	Enjoy. You've only got five minutes to spend it.

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Your crushes name
Your age
Your crushes age
Pecentage	70%

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Name
You should become a	Struggling Poet
You should marry	Your best friend's boyfriend/girlfriend
You should live in	England
You should vacation in	Fiji
Try to avoid	Cracks in the sidewalk
Always remember to	Tell your mother that you love her
Your lucky number is	79

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Name
Birthdate
Color That Most Appeals To You
Your Animal Spirit Guide	Unicorn - Wisdom: Purity, Goodness, Symbol of supreme magickal power, teaches that every action is creation, helps to understand the relationship between physical and spiritual realities, Making dreams come true, virtue, beauty, weather patterns, connection with the woodland and the beings within

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Your Seven Day Luck Guide by electronicoffee
Your Name
Your D.O.B.
Your Sign
Monday	3 - Normal Luck
Tuesday	2 - Low Luck
Wednesday	3 - Normal Luck
Thursday	2 - Low Luck
Friday	1 - Bad Luck
Saturday	0 - Cursed
Sunday	4 - Above Average Luck

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Your Luck With the Vamps. (Vampire Chronicles/Girls only) by Auset
Name
Fav. Color
You will meet him...	June 21, 1995
"He" is ...	Louis
You will be with him...	For 5 years
Where he turns you...	The desert
How...	Somewhere...censored
Why...	Because he wants to break the rules.

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Your life in the Vampire Chronicles by jadeddyskrasia
Username
Age
Your maker will be:	Gabrielle
You will die at the age of:	616
You will be killed by:	Lestat, who got jealous when Louis said he found you more attractive

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Real Name
Astrological Sign
Your immediate future:	Kill your best friend
How you will die:	You will slip and fall off a cliff
Your afterlife:	You will rule heaven

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Birth date...
Favorite Candy Bar...
Bite your nails...
Your greatest desire...
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first and last name capitalized properly
you are	a libra at heart
your theme music	The Flaming Lips "Life on Mars"
you firmly believe in	getting all you can all the time
at times you come of as if you are	hallucinating
though you are really	lonely
you will marry	no one at all

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Another Perfect Day

2006-05-25T10:45:00.000+08:00

Aloha guys! Stressful day... NOT! Surprisingly! Although I had to stay for CCA photo taking till 5... We had to wear our stupid jerseys which are so damn ugly. Guess what colour? Blue with yellow wordings! That is totally gruesome. Yeah so today was pretty okay... I kinda thought that it would be fun if my friends each had like... Some super hero for each of them which turns out to be just FUN.

Millie LOVE Spiderman
Bing Bing LOVE Superman
Charmaine LOVE Batman
Tania LOVE Ultraman

Hahahahahahahah! I love the one about Ultraman. So damn funny. They keep imitating the beeping sound when Ultraman is gonna die. Which happens to be extra retarded. Anyway we wrote this story about the four of us with that desinated super hero. Lol yeah it was quite fun being retarded. Oh yeah... 2 more days to the holidays! There is no school tomorrow! Joy to the world! 3 cheers for Millie!

Lol anyway yesterday I made my mum spent 60 bucks. Yeah I am so nasty I know. I bought two VCDs. Lol Mean Girls as well as The Eye 10. You might be thinking that both probably cost about 30 over dollars added together. But you are dead wrong. They are only about 21 dollars! Lol okay so you guys would probably be wondering how could the Queen spend so much money. Well... Besides the VCDs I bought the Sims 2 add on pack which costs about 30 bucks. So that makes 51. I also bought the Horrible Histories book which costs 18 bucks. We also bought tuna cause my sister wanted to eat it today. Yeah so all in all we spent about... About 70 over dollars. I am so angelic! I made someone spend so much on me in one day. Hahaha I am just a pauper so please do not mind all the nonsense I am currently ranting about here. Anything to add people? Please post your comments on the new tagboard although I am sure Nana has already spammed it. Tata people.

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One More WEEK!

2006-05-22T02:55:00.000+08:00

Can you believe it? One more week to the June holidays! Woot woot! I love this baby! Anyway today there is no piano cause Miss Lim went overseas. Hell yeah! I am so damn bored though... Dunno what to do. Dunno what to say.

WHAT THE HELL? Guess what? I just deleted my freaking paragraph that was meant to be here... Argh! Okay calm down... I will rewrite this whole thing calmly... Anyway as I was saying... Last night there was this cool show on channel 5. Yeah the show is called Like Mike. Something much about basketball... As you people know I do not really fancy basketball or anything but yeah... The show is nice! Okay so you people must watch it. Hahaha okay. This Friday... Which is the last day of school... We are gonna be let off at 10.30am! The power of belief! Woot! There is finally something about school that I love. Oh yeah Friday is also Tania's birthday! So we are gonna go exploring I think... Hahahha. Yeah. Hmm... Actually these few days... My life has being really really really boring. Yeah nothing to do. Just results results results. You know all those crap? Yeah. Okay so I gotta go right now. Seeya peeps around sometime.

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Memegens

2006-05-21T14:35:00.000+08:00

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	breath taking
Your hugs are...	friendly
Your eyes...	twinkle in the moonlight
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	amazing
Your smile is...	encouraging
Your love is...	unique

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Name:
Hair:	Never stays the same style/colour for long.
Clothes:	A bit revealing, but nothing too over the top.
Powers:	Dragon taming
Special Features:	Fangs
Sidekick:	A small fairy that can get real annoying, real fast.
Attitude:	Happy, bouncy, too hyper for it to be heathly.
Weapon:	Sword

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Bored...

2006-05-21T05:25:00.000+08:00

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Results

2006-05-19T07:55:00.000+08:00

Ugh. Got the damn results back today. Guess what people? I failed my Maths! Ahahaha! So damn freaking funny! I cannot believe I failed by 1 mark. But who cares anyway? I am not gonna go into anything to do with Maths. Maths is stupid.

Hmm anyway I got A2 for English! Oh my... I seriously cannot believe it myself. But Ester also got A2. Sarah Cheung go 2 more marks than me which is 72. I tied with Ester with the marks of 70. Hmm... I nearly failed my stupid History. Ugh. Stupid idiotic studies! Hate them all... Ok... The rest of the subjects are pretty ok considering the fact that I did study. Shhh! NEVER EVER tell my parents or my sister. They are so gonna go totally crouching tiger hidden dragon on my butt. Which I hope will never ever have to happen in my whole life. Haha so anyway I am gonna be having 'tuition' with my sister. The cocky crazy donkey of the family whose Maths happens to rock. Ugh. All people with good Maths results are barmy. Don't you agree with me?

Haha enough of my nonsense. I changed the song on my blog. Like it? Hahaha I think that it sounds cute. I was pissing Ester of my singing it today in school. We also play arm wrestling. She cracked my dang bone! I could feel the thing actually dislocating. My poor hand! So today went... Ok I think. Besides the fact that I failed Maths. Hahaha Stephanie is so gonna hi-five me when she hears this. She simply hates Maths too. I wish the person who actually discovered or invented Maths will choke on his own intestines, be run over by a train, be struck by lightning and die a horrible death. The problem is that he is already dead... Well, too bad I can't bring him back to life because if I can, I will. Then he will learn the true meaning of TORTURE. Am I evil or what?

Hmm... That sums the day up. The same old boring day where Miss Millie Chiu has not managed to conquer the pesky human race. Well, off to the papers to devise another good plan to kill humanity. :) Tata guys.

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Poseidon

2006-05-16T09:45:00.000+08:00

Guess what? I watched Poseidon today! Rocks! Simply ROCKS.

I recommend it highly! The show just freaking rocks. No other words to explain it. You people should really really what it. One of the best movies I have ever watched! Anyway on my birthday I am gonna watch The Omen. Heard from my sister that it is damn scary. But anyway I still wanna watch it. I also wanna watch the 2nd Pirates Of The Caribbean. So damn cool! Movie fanatic alert! Yeah... Okay.

Anyway today was really way boring. Hated it. Stupid sexuality talk. Ugh. Stupid school. Stupid talks. Stupid people. Sarah Cheung went to steal our class blog template! What the fuck? That seriously pisses me off to the gut. I hate people who are so damn fake! Unoriginal bullshits. Find the damn template for your class yourself. I am not your servant. I do not do stuff for you or your class. I told her off already. Ugh. I wish I could literally scream my lungs out. People like that ought to shoot themselves. Seriously... Even if you are reading this. I cannot be bothered. Know why? Cause I hate it! I refuse to live in denial. I refuse to compromise. I refuse to be fake... Unlike SOMEONE around here. Why copy the template I did? Of all people... The template editting was done by me. Guess what? I freaking hell HATE people who are copies.

Copying is not a form of flattery, it is a form of stealing.

Get that phrase in your head! Ugh. I am just so pissed off I can hardly think. Oh yeah... I did some interesting experiment today. My record for holding my breath is... 57.4 seconds! Amazing right? I thought my lungs were small. Ok so I am bored. Yeah... Let me think of any other interesting things to say... Oh yeah. We played truth or dare today. Yeah... Was kinda lame but fun anyway. Hahaha. Yeah anyway I gotta go. Seeya.

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I am

2006-04-24T12:55:00.000+08:00

I am a poet writing of my pain.

I am a person living a life of shame.

I am your daughter hiding my depression.

I am your sister making a good impression.

I am your friend acting like I'm fine.

I am a wisher wishing this life weren't mine.

I am a girl who thinks of suicide.

I am a teenager pushing her tears aside.

I am a student who doesn't have a clue.

I am the girl sitting next to you.

I am the one asking you to care.

I am your best friend hoping you'll be there.

Me

2006-04-10T08:30:00.000+08:00

I will never be the girl who is pretty and tall
I will never be the girl who is smart and all
I will never be the girl with perfect style and grace
I will never be the girl with the pretty blonde beach locks
I will never be the girl who everyone wants to be around
I will never be the girl who does not make a sound
I will never be the girl all the men will hound
I will never be the girl with the perfect social life
I will never be the girl who would make a perfect wife
But
I will always be the girl who stands her ground
I will always be the girl who makes sure her voice is heard
I will always be the girl whose has her own style and grace
I will always be the girl who knows never to fake a smile
I will always be the girl who has that special someone
I will always be the girl that certain people want to hang around
I will always be the girl who has confusion in her head
I will always be the girl with the screwed up life
I will always be ME.

RPG or Anime Character by ChaoticSoul
Your Name
Species	Cat Demon
Hair Color	Blue w/ White Streaks
Eye Color	Left-PaleBlue Right-Black
Personality	Determined
Weapon/Power	Daggers

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